Nothing More

Chapter One:

Crying. Crying and kicking is what I wake up to almost every morning. There is never a morning where I can wake up peacefully or even sleep in for that matter but I was given this life and I wouldn't change it for the world.

" Mommy?" she whispered.

I'm a mother and I wouldn't change it for the world, I love my daughter. She's so smart and sweet (when she wants to be) she's my mini me. She may only be 3 years old but she's my best friend and couldn't ask for anyone better. I was only 18 when I became pregnant with her, so she's all I had. She's never let me down like everyone else has and she's always here to listen and cuddle when I need it. To her I'm perfect and couldn't do any harm to the world.

" Sophia, let's lay down for another couple of minutes. Mommy isn't ready to wake up".  I whispered back to her. I pull her in closer and cuddle her up in the arms hoping she doesn't refuse me. Being a mother is hard enough but being a single mother is even more of a challenge. I was lucky enough that when I became pregnant with her I had already started college and had finished a year already, and in the beginning I had some help to where I was able to continue. However, for now online classes is what I have to do along with working during the day and still providing for Sophia, I have to be a fighter.

" But daddy is coming to pick me up today and I need to be ready."

She loved her father; he was her hero and the greatest person in her eyes. He was my best friend once, my first love and just my person. People change though and so do their actions and their words. We did not end well, we fought and yelled and so many names were thrown around it was exhausting. When we broke up he didn't want anything to do with Sophia or me at first. He was all about the partying, the drinking, the late nights his friends and more obvious the girls. The ladies loved him and wanted him all to their selves.

A year or so passed by and he really started to step up and be the father he wanted to be. He took her during my finals week and would even stay at my apartment while I studied just to make sure she slept well and was attended to. Her would bring me dinner at times and sleep on the couch just so I didn't have to get up in the middle of the night if he knew I wasn't doing so well. This side of him no one knew about. The only people that are aware of this are I along with a few of his friends. If everyone else knew his image and reputation of being this badass good-looking player would all go down the drain? He wasn't a bad guy but he and I just weren't meant to be when we happened and we were better off apart.

The times he did come over we didn't talk, we didn't even look at each other at times unless it was a hello, goodbye, please or thank you.

We both weren't ready to talk about "us" or what happened, we were young and we both are aware of that so why bring up the past?

He is a good father to Sophia and wouldn't do anything to hurt her, she is his princess and he is her King and in Sophia world they live in a castle and fight dragons and eat Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwiches.

Sophia had a point so I rolled out of bed taking her with me. We do our morning ritual of brushing our teeth together and eating breakfast on the bar stools along with watching Classic Disney movies to start the day. I ran a bath for her as timing was running out before her father got here and I still needed to pack her over-night bag. She insists on taking multiple outfits just in case she doesn't like it when it's time for her to get dressed. She's a lady of options and she gets that from me. However, ever since I've become busier getting myself dressed up hasn't become a priority. My attire has become leggings, sweats and t-Shirt

As I got all of Sophia's bags and belongings together I walked back into the kitchen to clean up the mess from our breakfast and finally get some alone time to myself. As much as I love her, I need some alone time to keep sane. As I'm putting the plates in the dishwasher I hear the knock on my apartment door and my stomach goes into knots and anxiety rolls in. I seem him all the time when he picks Sophia up and I still get nervous every time.

Notes: Thank you to whoever is reading this right now!! I just began to write this a few days ago and am really happy so far! I'm not set on a schedule yet but I am in the process of writing Chapter 2, all comments are welcomed and I already appreciate you guys!