My mind is in a jumble,
My heart in an uproar,
Lost in the anxiety,
Trying not to cry.
Thoughts in my head,
Blade on my mind,
Wanting to cut,
Feeling the blood run til it dries.
Thoughts playing thru my head,
Watching the blood run,
As the pain fades,
The emotions fade as well.
I just want the emotions to leave,
Maybe the blade will give me relief.
As these thoughts swirl thru my head,
The appeal of the blade grows.
I try not to let it win,
But it's so tempting with all that's on my mind.
Sadly, the blade grows closer to my skin,
I fight but I do not win.
July 6, 2017
