Love? // H.G

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Ugh, I'm dreading this. First day back at school in an hour. What a magnificent summer I had. Can you sense the sarcasm. It all happened 2 months ago, today. I miss my brother more than anything..and my virginity. He has not touched me like that since then. But if I want a roof under my head I'll have to deal with his beatings. Kevin meant the world to me, no I'm not gonna get all soft for a second. But I'm getting real, he was the only thing that made me happy. Let me stop thinking and get in the shower before I'm late.

After my shower I had no idea what to wear so I threw on ripped jeans, a thrasher hoodie and some vans. The absolute only outfit I own that is not complete shit. I grab my bag, skateboard, phone and head out. I lock up because we don't, well I don't need someone breaking in and murdering my father. It wouldn't be much appreciated, even though he deserves it.

**at school**

Let's see I'm officially a Junior now, one more year til I can move out and graduate. I'm 17, and am in all advanced classes. You can also say im a band geek perhaps. I had my headphones in listening to music on my way to math and all of the sudden someone bumped into me really hard. Great, my body aches even more now and it has to be a popular looking boy. Almost like every other cliche I dropped my books.

"I'm sorry" I mumbled and bent down to pick up my books realizing he was already doing that for me.

"No no, excuse me. I'm the one who should be apologizing, I'm new here and was in a rush to find my class. I should of been paying attention." He smiled a foolishly adorable smile that could make every girl fall for him.

"It's uh all cool, I'm on my way to Calculus right now actually. Maybe if you're going there too I can show you the way?" This boy is really cute, but he seems like the heart breaker type. I'm not looking to get hurt. Please no, not anymore than I am.

"Really I am too, please show me how to get there. It'd mean a lot." His whole face lit up with grateful and happiness. I walked with him to class while answering a few of his normal questions. Like my name, grade, age and so on.

Once we got there the teacher was all over him, turns out his name is Hayes. We practically got a whole speech about how he's new here and to be nice yada yada. He kept looking at me, maybe staring at me during class. What a shame, he should be paying attention. This class is too hard for him anyways. Stop Josephine. It's almost to hard for you.

After class I grabbed my stuff and walked out listening to my music. Then this Hayes kid sadly interrupted. "Dammit I really liked that song." I would say that out loud, nice going. When they say trust no one they weren't lying, I can't even trust my mind anymore.

He chuckled and smiled, "I was wondering if you wanted to work on our homework together later." Sigh, should I? A little study session won't hurt. I just noticed how gorgeous he was, why is he talking to the likes of me? I'll ask him later.

"Yeah sure, it'd have to be at your place though. I can't have people over." I bit my lip thinking about my hate for my dad.

"Alright, sounds like a plan. Here put your number in, I'll text you when our last period over so you know where I'm at." Damn he's hot. Oh Josephine, this is probably a booty call or prank of some sort. Just don't let your guard down later.

"Okay, see ya later!" I smile softly and head off to my next class. Maybe this won't be so bad, I could be making a friend for once. Hopefully I dont get beat too bad for being out late.

Only if I had prepared myself for the news Hayes would tell me later..

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"So where did you come here from?" I said skateboarding slowly so im next to him. I've noticed how nice he is to me, unlike everyone else. He put his hands in his pockets and bit his lip immediately after I said that. Maybe I asked too much.