Blessed

This is not me..

(Still at lunch from the previous chapter)
(Jacks p.o.v)

I sat next to Felix and Mark sat next to me. I reached over to my tray to grab my milk when my sleeve went up and my wrists were exposed showing my cuts i freaked hurried to cover them but I saw Mark glance down and frown.

I sighed, and pretended that I didn't notice him frowning. I kept taking sneaky glances at Mark and blushing Felix noticed because I could feel him kicking my leg playfully he pretended to spill his drink on my shirt got a napkin and whispered in my ear "I ship it."

I blushed..what does he mean h..He doesn't know I'm g..gay. I gulped quite loudly accidentally. U..um I'll be back i have ta take a piss i got up dumped my tray and walked in the direction of the music room instead of the toilets.

I put in my ear piece and went to the drum set tapping the drum slowly to the beat. I come to the music room when I'm stressed or want to be alone.

I got completely lost in the music until a nerd came up to me and interrupted my fucking alone time. J..jack can you be a little quieter our class can't c...concentrate with the noise.

Shut the fuck up i snarled. Leave me alone before I hurt you do ya remember last time!? I snapped at him. Y..yes ja..jack but ms.hydie wants you to quiet down.. I FOOKIN TOLD YA TO GO THE FOOK AWAY NOW UR GONNA GET IT, I shouted.

( TRIGGER WARNING)😢

He instantly paled and backed away slowly he tripped over his legs and kept scrambling backward. I picked him up and slammed him into the back wall i kept punching him in the stomach and face ..why am I doing this...? YOU LITTLE SHITE I SCREAMED. He was bleeding I'm scared t..this isn't me.

I felt strong arms wrap around me and pull me away from the poor boy. I felt tears in my eyes why did I choose to go down this hateful road. I'm no better than my father. I choked on ugly sobs.

Marks p.o.v)

I was going to check on Jack in the bathroom when I heard someone scream "YOU LITTLE SHITE" it sounded like it was coming from the music room. I ran towards it as fast as I can.
I saw jack beating up a poor boy I was full of rage I've always hated bullying so to think my crush was doing it tore me apart i didn't know what to think so I sorta gently pulled him away but I was angry as all hell.

*sob* why the fuck is Jack crying if anything the poor boy should be crying! Jack has no right to cry right now. It hurt me to say this when I did i immediately regretted it after it fell out of my mouth, Jack what the all actual fuck is wrong with you, you fucking asshole. I cringed at my harsh words.

Your right Mark I am an asshole this is not me he said he ran out of the room in tears. I wanted to chase after him so bad but fought against it and decided to help the boy that resembles death right now.

I picked up the boy and put him over my shoulder as I walked to the nurses office. Hey kid what's your name? i asked. I..it's Jacob he chokes out. Ok Jacob when we get to the nurse tell her what hurts the most first then go to the small injuries, ok? He nodded slowly and then slowly passed out. I sighed and whispered ...why jack...?

Jacks p.o.v)

I ran to the bathroom and pulled out my box of fags (fag s means cigarettes in Ireland) and lit them up. I took a long drag from it and held it. Then i released.

I took out the razor from the other day blood still stained on it.
I thought Of The Look Mark gave Me In That Room.

1 Cut
Thought Of poor Jacobs Face
2 Cuts
Thought Of My choices
3 Cuts
And...my Father
4 Cuts

i Watched My blood fall slowly down my arms. I wanted to cry but I was all dry...I'm empty so all I did was laugh like I was fucking insane i laughed all the self hate off.

I got off of the floor and went to the sink cleaned my self up remembered my fag and turned around picked it up and put it against my arms purposely on my cuts . I screamed out in pain then distinguished the fag and threw it away.

My next class is english with...ms. Hydie I'm so fucked I thought I'm so dead. I trudge to my next class taking my sweet ass time. Once I get there i go to my seat in the back then dropped my head on the desk...this is gonna be a damn long period i sighed...

AUTHORS NOTE: I'M SORRY 😢 it was a sad chapter but we got through it together. As always I will see YOU in the next CHAPPPPPPTTTTTEEERR BUH-BYE!!!!