i just made the cover and jeeeez its so basic like everyone else's yet i like it, this chapter might suck bc its 1 in the morning... plus im not such a great writer aha
-A
Harry
I run my fingers over the red journal's cover and open it to flip the pages over and over again debating whether or not to read it. I eventually put the book down on the countertop and look at the time.
7:31 p.m.
I scoff and thought "How cliché, of course it would be a minute before I'm supposed to leave."
Deep down though, I was scared. I watched the clock anxiously waiting for it to turn to 7:32.
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7:32 p.m.
I suddenly closed my eyes and felt the darkness come upon me.
I jerked up and looked around where I was, home. A feeling of relief rushed over my body, I just fell asleep. I turned my attention to the time.
4:36 a.m.
I turned the lights on and looked around. Did that really just happen? Am I really dying? Is it really going to be the end of m-
"Yes, Harry. It's real."
I was startled by the man speaking.
"Jesus at least tell me when you're gonna show up, you have got to stop doing that."
He closes his eyes and shakes his head.
"What are you doing here anyway?"
"I'm here to remind you that you only have 6 months to finish that unfinishe business of yours"
He points at the red journal that's sitting on the table, untouched, right where I left it.
"Better get to it"
I sit on the couch with manu thoughts running around my mind.
"What happens if I don't? Finish my unfinished business, I mean."
"You don't go where you would wanna go."
I gave him a puzzled look, which is probably the only look I will always give him, I don't think I'll ever figure out this "death" thing.
"What do you mean?"
"If you were to die, where would you want to go?"
"What if I don't wanna die?" I mumbled as he rolled his eyes.
I sighed "Well, I guess I'd wanna go to heave- oh, I see."
He nodded, smiled and once again disappeared.
I made my way to the couch and opened to the first page of the journal.
August 11, 2009
Dear Harry,
Hi!!! In case you didn't know, it's me! Honey! I know this is stupid but I've decided to make a journal just so you know how life is here while you're in New York, I'm planning to stop writing in it and give this to you the next time I see you which I know is in exactly 4 months from now. I hope you don't mind that. Today is the day of your departure, I'm gonna miss you so much. This summer has been so amazing, you've made me feel so happy in ways other people can't. That's all I'm gonna write for now Harbear, I have to drop you off at the airport. It's gonna be hell driving you there then driving back alone.. I love you Haz.
always & forever,
honey
I read the page at least 7 times, admiring her neat handwriting. She always was a neat and organized person, that was one of the many things I admired about her. She always made our plans and they would work out seamlessly. I still vividly remember the day that I left.
flashback
"Honey, I'm home!"
I chuckled at my own joke when suddenly I was greeted by a heavy embrace.
"HARBEAR!"
The sweet voice of my girl made me grin.
"Hi love" I kissed her cheek and stared at her eyes, I felt like I was lost in the ocean.
She got off me and stood up straight pulling on the end hem of her shirt.
"Um, so uh what time are you leaving?"
"I have to be there in 20 minutes"
She gave me a smile but I knew it wasn't genuine, I knew that deep down she was hurting.
"Do you wanna go get chips with ice cream?"
Her head shot up and she nodded excitedly.
"Of course!"
She had the brightest smile, she's so beautiful.
After we finished our treat, we went straight to the airport. We were outside when Honey stood in front of me with tears that she was trying to hold back. I hugged her tightly and she hugged me even tighter. None of us spoke a word.
Unfortunately, I had to break our sweet embrace.
"If I don't go in now, the line for the check in will get longer and you'll be stuck with me forever" I joked
"Better go then, I've been waiting for this day for so long" she rolled her eyes and laughed.
I grabbed her chin and made her look up to me. I smiled at her before giving her a kiss.
The kiss that I was gonna long for the moment I step on the plane. The kiss that I wasn't gonna be able to experience for 4 long months. It was sweet and passionate yet sorrowful. She tasted just like her name. I wanted to stay in that moment forever.
end of flashback
I touched my lips with my hand and closed the notebook. I suddenly had this empty feeling inside of me.
I need to go back.
I need to find her.
I need her.
soooo i didnt go back and correct my spelling bc im currently on my phone rn. i hope this was okay, i was kind of not feeling it. idk i just dont feel anything yet i feel everything all at once.
-A
