Family and dear friends,
Some things are not meant to be and it's obvious by now that I was here only to suffer.
Suffer the pain.
Suffer the consequences.
Suffer the damage.
Suffer through the darkness.
Suffer through losses and slight gains.
But now it's done. My suffering is over.
I don't want to lay all of the pain on you but let my pain lift you up and fall off your shoulders and let the weight fall. Every pill is a strong reminder that it's gonna be worth everything. Once it's done there's no going back. The blades will be dull and the pills will be gone. No more pain for me or you. The only thing I wonder is if the shit will go around more often once I'm not here to hear it.
Stronger,
Meaner,
Not thought through.
The words come out but eventually it won't mean anything... until I'm gone.
I'm leaving my pain in the past while I make a better future for you and everyone else. I never said I didn't love you. I never stopped and I never will stop loving you. It's the other people that make it difficult. So call me what you want. I don't care anymore because the pain is temporary and my pain can become permanent. So forget me fast and don't dwell on the past.
I love you. Remember that. ♥️
