starlight

her

I- I have a boyfriend. He's one of the sweetest kids I know. I don't want to hurt him. But I know that in the end I will.

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Seventeen years of life, and I feel as if my eyes have been deceiving me all these years. In the hallways of our high school campus, all I can see is her.

I see a little bit of her in every one nowadays. It scares me to death, the exhilaration of it all. My thoughts, my dreams, everything I do... it's all about her. But then I have to come to terms with reality, and remember that these feelings I'm having are inhumane and unusual.

Facing my boyfriend everyday is painful. It's not even as if I'm worried he'd find out. I'm sure he's not noticed me pining silently over her; I hate to say this but... let's just say he's not the most noticing of sorts. His perception skills, when it comes to people at least, need major work. It's just... every time I look into his eyes, his face, all I see is her in him. Whenever he speaks, all I hear is her. And everytime I'm with him, as partners rather than friends, I just wish it were her instead.

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He's one of the sweetest boys I know. And I don't want to hurt him. I really don't. But I know that in the end I will.

ik it's really cringey. so sorryyyyy

TheNerdyAuthor13
TheGhostKing87
yay it's published. well republished, technically. but whatever.