She rakes her hands through her hair, and the sun hits the natural highlights in her hair. I watch as she turns to the person next to her, and whispers something to him. He grins at her, and she giggles. I try to look away, but I can't. I never can.
She turns around, looking my way. Her eyes meet mine, and she smiles at me; I smile back. She raises four fingers towards me in a double peace sign, an inside joke between us.
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"You're such a dork," I complain, lightly punching my boyfriend on the shoulder.
"How so, Z?"
"You really want me to answer that question, Ray?" I retort.
"Good point."
His sister walks into the room. "You still call each other by those weird letter and geometry term nicknames?" My boyfriend blushes. I just stare at my hands.
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And at that moment, I realized, no matter how much I tried to love him romantically, it wouldn't ever happen. I had mistaken philia for eros for far too long. He was a good guy; he deserved better than me, a person who would never love him back, in the way he wanted to be loved.
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Teen Fiction*formerly "shE"* a girl in a relationship with a boy starts to question her sexuality as she falls in love with some girl.
