" mommy I'm cold , can I have a cover please "
My 1 years old son asked me I smiled looking down at him and I reached over and handed him the blue cover that now looked brown I put it over him and his little face frowned up
" mommy this covers smells "
I sigh some and looked at my surroundings we was now in a abandoned house I cleaned it up the best way I could and I always gather wood for the fire place to keep him warm and not cold I look over at him I hated that he looked like his dad it hurt me even more that he reminded me of his dad so much
" I know baby , mommy have to find a way to wash it , just use it for now okay "
He nodded his head and laid on his pillow I made him a bottle and handed it to him he began to sip it closing his eyes
I hate that my son have to live like this but he all I got honestly I taught my son everything he needed to know so that's why his words aren't gibberish like most 1 year old I was gonna raise him to be better than his dad and trust me he was I know he don't understand what's going on but I was gonna get better it takes time I laid next to him on the beat up coach and cuddled against him I kissed his forehead and rubbed his hair as a tear fell I closed my eyes letting Sleep take over me
{10:35am Morning Time}
I woke up because the sun beamed in my face I sat up slowly looking around mason was still asleep I woke him up because i had to go figure out my next meal and plus he was out of infamil and pull ups I sigh grabbing a dirty hair tye putting my hair in a ponytail tail
" mommy where we going "
I began putting his pants and shirt on and his busted up nikes and a little black polo hat I put some jeans on and a white shirt grabbing my purse that contain only all his things in it I picked him up walking through the back so nobody seen us as we left the abandoned house I put him down grabbing his hand so we can walk as I walked I seen a church that had a sign which said " Helping Day" i looked down at mason and he still looked tired I picked him up and no doubt my baby smelled and so did I he laid on my shoulder and I rubbed his back and walked towards the church As I arrived I walked in and it was quiet I walked around not knowing where to go until I came across these big doors I opened it and it was the service room I walked in and sat down and held mason in my arms I sigh and looked at the Cross in the ceiling I closed my eyes and began to pray
" Dear lord I know you disappointed in me , but I'm trying my best i need help lord please help me with mason , with myself I have nothing no family , friends , just you lord and my baby boy , I believe in you I know you going to help me and I'll be patient Amen " I opened my eyes and looked down at Mason and sigh some
" baby are you okay "
I jumped up and looked back and I became face to face with a elder lady she looked to be in her 60's she had beautiful grey hair nice gloomy skin and dressed well and she had a worry look on her face I stood up quick
" uh yes ma'am I saw the sign outside and I came in , I got lost and ended up in here sorry"
I say holding on to Mason tightly
" I'm sorry but you came in to late , we stop serving food and giving clothes out earlier " the elder lady say
I sigh and I look up at her
