The freaks diary : untold stories

Note#? :Emily and Yumi

                          Miss .Freak :

It was a lonely night, like usual since well..decades ,i taked cared of my proxies,anna and bell possibly are sleeping right now and the others too, i can't sleep like always and is late of night, i would not bother frosty and her sleep right now, i don't even know if it would help, is just so different, a deep hole filled with nothing in mah heart, i had ever— no almost everything, i have a lover, i have proxies that work for me, friends, allies, siblings, but.. I still so, is just so ,i can't.
I just started hit and mess mah things with rage, remorse but I noticed that I still inside the abandoned circus, the others would wake up if I not stop, so I contained myself and go outside, I seated in the ground a bit far of the circus, placed my hands in my knees and started presses why try contain the tears, failing,when I feel one tear fall from my eyes and end in the ground

"Why it have to hurt? Why me, I know I'm not in a good person,I don't even a person anymore ,but I still have a heart, a beating one ,memories... Oh My Miquel, my sweet baby ,I hope the heaves still keeps that plan that it have for you, Clara.. Clara you brilliant girl ,i loved you more than i should and you know..huh,my little pain"

I get up and started walk in the deep and mysterious forest that i also call part of my home or garden ,what you prefer call it don't matter anyway,i walked in while think in well everything, the last decades, the people that I meet, the ones that I know, the ones that I knew ,I realized" I never found much things whorty to care much,be intrigued with even simple things of them like see them grown up, like a kid"
My thoughts anyway was interrupted by a noise coming from near me ,I calmly stopped and started spin my head to every side with curiosity, try find who made this sound ,how I can know that is "who" and now "what"? when you are creature of millions of years and need hunt, eat to live, you surely can learn somethings like that .

I started walked to the place that I thinked that the noise is coming from and I found.. A children? actually a little girl, a really blind one,the bandages in her eyes tell me that she can't see anything at all ,this is really short of luck so I taked the risk and coming near to talk to her

"Hello sweetie, do you look lost, you are okay?" She turned to me and she reply me, it was.. well great I don't know why but
"Oh hello miss ,yeah I'm okay but I'm not lost" she smiled to me and I kinda get a bit confused with that last thing
"Oh no? but is late at night and you are well.. alone in the forest, where are your family ?
"I don't have one,this is why I'm always with them since is there nobody be and not be is the same thing, right?*give a small smile"Yeah that girl surely know how make you feel bad for her and she know how make it amazingly well , I even feel.. Feel.. That little pain in my heart "
"Wait,so you are here alone, have nobody to care about u even after all, oh sweetie if u not were a kinda of zombie girl I really would feel really sorry and stuff and ask you to come to my house with me, but nah I heard about you, like you I have good ears but mine can move, see or take photos and after that show, tell me "
" wait ,you, know me? " ahh in times like that I love my proxies and ears
"Kinda, I heard about a little from a friend, but I just imagined you.. different,but *get in her knees stands a hand * that's fine, I'm Miss freak, or Mrs. carousel, what you prefer call and yours and also a important question*I feel a rain drop falling in my head* care for a place to stay while the rain?no bites please "the girl surprisedly smiled and take my hand
"I'm yumi and thank you, Mrs. Carousel " we started to walk while the rain slowly and calmly started with only some few agradable rain drops but something make we stop a little girl in the middle of the forest, a bit more older than yumi ,that girl I surely know she is not alive or even near that she was blood almost everywhere and the poor apparence
"A lost soul, a poor soul.." In that moment I looked at yumi, I feeled the lil pain in my heart again, it hurts, the memories remember you the past and situations similar to that and make you think about and make you feel to urge to do something about it  you know you can't do it with the past, change something but you can so something now ,yeah I really go for her ,talked to her, she is nice actually I bringed her with me and yumi too while the rain start get more rough, I think is not that much but I think it's a good start, yeah is a good start maybe not of something big or not really that great start, is simple but is a start and I have to admit, I like ,the little girls is sleeping hugging me they falled asleep while watch the rain and see me writing and tell stories, you know they remind of old times, the good times and this means almost the world for me, yeah the world for me, like a kid or two right now, well I think now I will have more company since now and on and it's is great actually.
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