I didn't say it, yet tears still flowed to my eyes. Rumors continued to spread. I was still being shunned. I would never say anything like that. I just tried to comprehend what was going on for the past 48 hours. Yeah, I understand I can be a few choice words, but now, I DIDN'T DO IT! I know I lie if I feel stressed, but this time, I DIDN'T LIE! I know I used to pick on people that are different, but I'm different too, so I RESPECT ORIGINALITY! I am trying my hardest to become a better person, but other peoples attitudes aren't helping much. I'm sorry, but someone who was once a bully, but is trying to become a better person, should not be treated like this in return. Isn't this ironic: a previous bully, being bullied themself. People say it builds character and strength. Listen to what I have to say, because I have been bothe the bully and is now the victim.
As a bully, I have understood their piont of view. I mean, I have some slight issues. If someone says something to me and I find it offensive, I let them know, and I'm not exactly the sweetest person at doing that. Sometimes, I just build up with stress, and find myself letting it all out by crying or letting people have it. I have tried to talk to just about anybody you can think of about this, but no one seems to understand this. I would also think of bullying as a way to get payback. Tell me, if you were bullied, wouldn't you like to get payback?
Payback isn't the answer to all of your problems, though. Payback makes you the bad guy. Here's the victims point of view.
Being bullied makes me feel weird, stupid and psycotic. I have been bullied since about the age of 5 by not only my peers, but by my family and teachers as well. It's not fair. I've always been the outsider. It hurts. I wanted to die. I attemped suicide. I got in fights. I was put into a psyiciatric hospital because I was 'a threat to myself and society,' I was emo and on depression medicine for 2 years.
I hope that my life and my story will help you understand that bullying hurts yourself, as well as others.
