The badboy's boy

The bad boy's boy nightmare

I updated because I won't be able to write for a while. Maybe I will. But since I'm working that will be hard.

Also probably going through a writers block

I thought back. Memories flashing through my head.

"Sshh Bunny I'm here " I hear Mateo whispers quietly to me.

I tried to get away from him.

"Calm down Evan " he said holding me tighter, pulling me to his chest.

"Let go of me! Don't touch me!" I scream violently sobbing.

"It's okay I got you " he says looking into my eyes.

"Let go of me ! " I scream in his face. He let's go of me looking confused.

I scramble away from him, standing up.

"Stay away from me " I yell at him when he tries to come near me.

"Bunny listen to me" he says standing up, taking a step closer.

"Don't call me bunny! I. Am. Not. Your. Bunny" I shout, gritting out every word.

"Calm down Bunny. You're just being hysterical" he said calmly.

"I'm being hysterical. You bullies have made me into a piece of crap. You made me into a punching bag !" I yell cryingly.

"You're my nightmare, haunting me everywhere I fucking go. You people are sick. You are a fucking monster"  I scream.

"Evan calm the fuck down" he whispers softly but the rage in eyes told me something else.
He was angry? How dare he be mad!

Before he can blink I punch him in the face. I lunge at him continue to punch him.

He falls back I straddle him punching his jaw.

"You don't have the right to be angry " I shout.

"You can't just come in my life and make me your Bunny all over again" I yell giving him a slap.

He just looks at me, smiling. Taking my every hit.

"I fucking hate you Mateo" I grit.

"I hate you" I said slapping his chest.

"I hate you" I said sobbing slumping down on him.

"I hate you" I whisper as tears continue to stream down my face.

He carouses my head.

"I know you do Evan. " he whispers

"And I don't take you for granted" he said his voice sounding broken. As if he was holding back not to cry.

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Staring at myself in the mirror I looked like a horror. A nightmare.

"Honey what's wrong ?" I can hear my mom ask outside the bathroom.

I took a deep breath.

"Nothing mom" I answered calmly

"Don't lie to me " she said barging through the door.

I look at her.

"Oh honey what happened? Did Mateo do this to you. I'm going to the principal tomorrow" she rambles.

"No mom he didn't do it. And please don't tell the principal. I don't want to be the class's snitch" I said.

"You're not being a snitch if it's in your wellbeing" she said

I shake my head.
"Mom I'm tired please leave this subject alone" I begged.

She was about to protest.
"Mom please" I plead.

She sighs nodding before leaving me alone.

I took off my clothes then went to shower.

I sigh in content as the warm water streams down my body.

Everything that happened to me was Mateo's fault. He ruined me. My every chance Of making friends, he simply didn't let me.

Maybe it was karma, my mind feeds to my thoughts.

The things that happened to that poor boy in kindergarten.

It was all my fault, I can't believe I did that to him.

I bullied him

And now I'm paying the price by getting the beat by Mateo.

He always bullies those who bully

But I wasn't like him. He was worse, he was ruthless.

Him suddenly coming into my life. Making it a living nightmare.

I still couldn't believe what I did to that boy in kindergarten.

I never meant to push him. And then second grade hitting his nose, pushing him from the stairs.

After that day I've never seen him. I didn't even remember him. What he looked like. What his name was. Nothing.

And all of a sudden another boy, Mateo , comes into my life.

Making me not have friends, hitting those who would get close to me. Sometimes even hurting me.

I can remember that day clearly when the teacher told the class that I was no longer attending this school

The way he hit me. He never did that.

But it was a punishment I deserved.

But how much this punishment did I deserve?

For one little mistake. I had to pay a huge amount.

Mateo never let me have friends. After he entered school he took it all away from me. He took everything away from.

          
           Just in one blink.

"Stop laughing at me" he sobs trying to get up. His knees were bruised.

Every kid on this ground was laughing at the poor boy. I felt a little guilty.

Although all these guilty feelings, it was hysterical.

"You're so dumb " I said giggling. His grey eyes grow bigger. Tears filling them more, indicating he was hurt.

"Good one Jamie" Xavier comments standing behind me.

I laughed with him as the boy runs away.

His shame and hurt was something that would make us laugh.

"Were friends right?" I ask Xavier. He nods.

I gasp for breath waking up. Feeling the cold sweat.

Ever since that day guilt has been eating me. I thought it had stopped but everytime I see Mateo it comes back. Reminding me that I did that to someone. A boy.

Just like how Mateo is my nightmare. So was I his.