Sad smiles

Is it true?

Is it true?
Experience life through the eyes of a child. Then we will be able to see all the magic, and wonder what the world has to offer.
But...
I don't remember seeing anything magical when i was a child.
That was when it all began
The pain
He walked away with my twin brother without any explanation.
Did i do something wrong?
My mother swore that we'd be together forever.
In the end she couldn't do anything. That was the only time i had seen her so powerless. She stayed silent and i couldn't help but wonder...
Was i a bad kid?
Was it my fault? That they left.
"We'll be happy again"
My mother told me "be strong"
So i started telling myslef that everything is going to be okay.
Im going to be happy again.
But why is everyone being so cold to me?
Please. Just tell me why.
Why are they doing this to me?
What have I done wrong to be treated like this?
I wanted to make friends.
But they all pushed me away.
What went wrong?
Why won't anybody tell me?
They tell me to go away.
That nobody wants me here.
Not here.
Not anywhere.
"Stay strong" I just tell myself.
As they call me terrible names.
Dont let them weaken you with words.
"Stay strong"
Even when they judge you.
"Stay strong" I just tell myself
As their backs face towards me.
"Stay strong"
Ad they walk away from me.
How long can I keep this up?
It's getting harder to hide the pain, it feels like I'm suffocating...
I dont care about happiness anymore.
I just want to feel okay again,
"Okay"
Is all I need.

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Inspired by "I love yoo"
I'll be similar but I'll have its differences.