Words Hurt

Chapter 2- Bullying

There was this one kid on my bus that has bullied me for as long as I can remember. His famous "joke" is calling people a twahle. His other one is calling me Shrek. I have grown up dealing with bullies but once I hit 8th grade they got bad. In 8th grade I didn't really think much about it but 9th grade hit and that's when I was tested for depression. I will go into that in the next chapter but during my 9th grade year I got really depressed to the point where I cut. I showed the people that I could trust and they told me that I was doing it for attention. That hurt. They told me that I was stupid for doing it and that if I wasn't doing it for attention I wouldn't go around showing everyone. The things that people said hurt. They are things that constantly go through my mind. Have you ever thought about this? You are there for everyone when they need a shoulder to cry on but are they there for you? I can tell you that most of my friends aren't. I have about 5 out I don't even know how many people that I know I can trust. I know I can go to those 5 people because they will know when something is wrong. They can just look at me and know that something is wrong. Some of the things that they said to me made me stop doing a lot of stuff that is very healthy for a person. I stopped eating, I stopped sleeping, I stopped smiling, laughing, I lost interest in a lot of things, I started isolating myself and only a few people could see that. They didn't understand that what they were saying to me actually hurt. They didn't realize that what they were saying would end up having such a huge impact on me. I know that everyone deals with bullies. If you don't then you are the bully. I know that the school system says that they do not allow bullying to happen in their schools but that is the number 1 lie in schools today. Well besides the fact that they lie to us about what is in the food.

I know that the chapters aren't that long but I am trying to make this book lengthy. I just want to let everyone know that if they ever need someone to talk to they can dm on here or if they have any of my social media message me on there. I am more than willing to help anyone with anything that they need. Remember that there are people that care and suicide isn't the answer. You have a choice in life, make the right one.