I told a girl I love her without realizing. But I feel like I should've told her more.
Like how to me she is worth more than her weight in gold or diamond, to me she is worth this whole galaxy and more. But I can't tell her that.
She likes me back but has already said she won't date me.
One can only wonder how to feel towards that. Here stands this most amazing girl. One that I am terrified of really telling her what's on my mind. One that I am afraid of letting go, but I am doing so. I feel my heart pounding against the bones that keep it safe as it is begging to be set free and go to where it wants which seems to be by her side. But I don't let it. My mind starts to hurt as I play thousands of different ways I can tell her how I truly feel, but I stay quiet cause I know it would be weird. I tell myself that it is okay she isn't ready to date anyone. Meanwhile I feel my eyes starting to water, and my heart begins to shatter and my mind is telling me I'm doing everything wrong. But I begin to yell "How can I be doing anything wrong when she's happy?!" with the swift response my brain and heart quickly reply "But you aren't happy!" This moment defined me. I never cared for me I never thought what makes me happy. I always made sure everyone else is happy before me. But today I cared for me and it got me no where. I got stuck in the same place I always been. The guy who accepts what's going on. The guy who has no backbone and doesn't say what he is feeling. The guy who loves the girl but won't say it but not for the fear of rejection but for fear of losing the one he loves the most.
(The song has a lot of meaning to me. So I chose it for the one poem that I wrote from my heart.)
