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Art shit

So literally every single fucking time I start to get confidence with my art, I get around a bunch of art geeks and I can't. I honestly feel like shit rn. Like I know I think my art would be a lot worse than it is, but everyone is so much better than me and I really feel like complete and utter shit. I've been sitting here for the past hour an a half with a blank piece of fucking paper. Everyone is done with there's and it's so good. Then I look back at shit I did not even that long ago and it sucks so bad. I have two goodish drawings in my sketch book, out of literally twenty drawings. Then I look at makeup and I just want to fr stop. I think I'm gonna, and I know people are gonna see this and tell me no, but what's the fucking point. Why invest my life into something that other people are so much better at? Why invest into something that I won't even be good at? I like to think "I'm so good" at makeup or drawing or whatever the fuck it is, then I see Micheal and I want to burn my book. Or I see his makeup (whiCH HE ISNT EVEN INTO) and I want to give it all away. I want to stop, but I'm not good at ANYTHING else. I'm already in YPAS and I'm literally not going to be able to do it. I'm gonna walk in with this attitude like "man I can do this shit" but fail by fucking the end of the month. Idk I just feel like shit, and I can't fucking do it. I don't know.. I just want to sit in my corner and not talk to anyone.. oh wait I'm already doing that.....