Suddenly I hear a door open, but pay no attention to it.
"Excuse me, what are you doing inside here?! You should be outside, class has not started yet!"
I opened my eyes very quickly and shot up, turning to the voice and stared at them with insanely wide eyes while my jaw dropped!
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[I truly am going crazy!]
"Did you not hear me" (The lady said with a slightly agitated tone)
"U-uh....Ah! My apologizes Ms..." (I shouted as I jumped down from the cabinets)
"Ms. Cheong" (The teacher answered)
"Ah yes, Ms. Cheong heh heh" (I nervously replied)
I quickly left the class and went to look for my friends. As I spotted them, I ran towards their direction and on the way someone bumped into me and I realized something that shocked me. They...didn't...go...through...me...I physically felt and touched them.
[I am not a ghost...?]
My friends looked at me and wondered why I was frozen.
"I-I can feel again...literally" (I said)
"What do you mean?" (My friend Sojung laughed)
"Walk through me" (I commanded)
"Huh?" (My friends said in confusion)
"Just do it and you'll see" (I demanded once again)
"Okay?" (They all replied)
As they all stepped closer, my heart repeatedly pounded and I could hear its echo very loudly. I was nervous...
Sojung let our other friend Sinb go first. She looked me straight in the eyes, crinkled her eyebrows then started to walk towards me. Her shoulder brushed against mine and it all happened in slow motion. She turned around looking back at all of us and everyone dropped their jaws. Their eyes were about to pop out of their heads, no joke.
"H-how??" (Another friend of mine, Yuna questioned)
"No way...are we going crazy?" (Sinb spoke in denial)
"I-I...I honestly don't know and a teacher saw me as well. Like as in, SAW me, in the flesh" (I responded)
"Did something happen or...what?" (Sojung asked)
"I mean last night-" (I was cut off)
*Bell rings*
"Oh no! What now?!" (I started to panic)
"I don't have any classes and the teachers don't even recognize me" (I said)
"I'm surprised no one has. YOU'RE Kim Yewon. How would no one know it's you? It's only been 3 years, it's not like people forget that easily." (Yuna stated)
"I don't know, but what should I-" (I was cut off once again)
"We really have to go, but how about you just stay in the music room, okay?" (Sojung suggested)
"Mm, okay" (I agreed)
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I examine the clock and see that it has only been 10 minutes into class and suddenly...I felt the urge to use the restroom.
[Well this is new...ever since I became a, uh, a uh ghost, I never really needed to go]
I stealthily maneuver my way to the nearest bathroom without being spotted. There were cameras set up all around school, but we all knew that they were for show. The cameras were real, but there was never really a staff member who monitored them. Strange... Anyways, when I finished, I went to wash my hands and...looked in the mirror. I-I lifted my hand and reached for the mirror, covering my mouth. I-I...I don't know what to say.
This...my mind was blank. How could I process this?!
The person in front of me was...not me. It was a different person. My face, oh my face. WHO'S FACE IS THIS?! On the inside I cried...I dropped to the floor, completely in shock and ran straight back to the music room. I laid there on my knees within the room.
[So this is why no one recognized me. They didn't see me as me, they saw me as...whoever this person was. I'm just glad that my friends could see me.]
I heard someone jiggling the doorknob so I quickly got up and ran to hide somewhere. The person walked in and closed the door behind him, leaning against it and sighing very deeply.
[It's the boy]
He looked very tired, maybe stressed. What was his name again? Ah yes, Min Yoongi. He then walked towards the piano and seated himself. Again, I began to hear the sweet sounds of the piano. I've wondered for quite some time of how he does it, how he plays with such beauty despite the stress that you can see in him. For a few seconds, I closed my eyes and moved my head to the tune. Reopening my eyes, he suddenly looked very...pretty. Back then, I would hear a few students calling him ugly and hideous, which reminded me of when others did the same to me. I guess the both of us could relate, funny.
The piano stopped and my head turned to the sound of a door opening. A girl? She walked to him and sat on his lap. The eye contact between them, it just didn't feel...right. She moved closer and their faces leaned in, lips touching. At that moment, his eyes, they changed. From being the soft and dull eyes to this sense of greed and hatred. It just, disappeared. I quickly looked away and covered my ears.
[I don't like this. Please someone, stop them.]
The girl wanted more, you can see it, then he just pushed her. Straight up pushed her to the ground and walked off. What shocked me most...she didn't seem bothered, and just naturally got back up, walking out. Is this what everything is like now...how much have I missed?
[I fear. I fear everything because it feels like I am back to reality as an actual person and I do not want to go through being that again. Being a person in this society and world, means only suffering then trying and trying. It is just tiring and I ask myself...when can I stop?]
I'm scared...
