1.00am
ethan.
we were sitting on the dewy grass, side by side, under the night sky. my heart was beating so fast. i wanted you to know but i was lost for words, so i kept quiet. let the silence pass through. you took in a deep breath, and let it go, but im still holding mine.
i took you here because you told me you loved the stars. you said they were tiny pinpricks of hope in a blanket of darkness. they filled your mind with poetry as you gazed at them.
you looked beautiful in your concentration. i was looking at you while you look at the sky, and your eyes were searching for something that i didn't know but at that moment my heart was leaping out from my chest and my feelings were in this one crazy wild goose chase and you were just sitting there in peace and tranquility, completely oblivious.
then, you turned towards me and i could see that a single tear was streaming down your cheek. i didn't know what to do, i was breaking seeing you like that. when you caught me staring, you quickly wiped it away and then smiled at me weakly as if to say "hey, im alright. no worries," but you can't help that it's clear you're not. you avoided my gaze.
"jude..." i took your hand and laced it with mine. "what's wrong?"
your hands were warm but they were tired.
"oh, nothing's wrong, it's just that.." you hesitated. "everything just feels so right. everything is so beautiful."
you laughed softly, "ah, gosh. this is stupid, i'm getting super emotional over the sky."
and that's when i knew i was completely, utterly, hopelessly in love with you.
