εмpтყ płคтε [TW] |Namjin 남진| [COMPLETED]

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Namjoon's POV

I woke up early again. I'm still used to the old schedule of waking up early and going for a jog. Usually I would turn around and played with Jin's hair untill I would fall asleep again but today I got a feeling that I need to go run, so I walked down stairs and got out of the house.

I started running. I ran faster and faster, tears falling down my cheeks. I remembered everything from last night. The way I woke him up, gave him plesure, eat with him pancakes and then saw it again. Him kissing Hobi. He hurt me. I have to do something or should I just pretend that nothing happened?

Then I remembered about my food diary. Is it still there in that drawer? I mean I stopped writing it because of Jin. I started eating because of Jin. Now that he's not mine anymore I can stop eating again, to feel empty, to feel happy.

I didn't even realised that I already ran 3 miles and I was standing in front of the house. Now I just have to put my happy face on and pretend nothing ever happened.

I walk into the kitchen and all eyes were on me. They all stopped talking, I gues they found out what haplened yesterday. Jin was sitting next to Hobi and he was looking at his blue eye.

"What are you looking at?" I asked. They were all still silent. I sat down between Kookie and Yoongi. I looke a bit angry at Hobi. Other hyungs were all finished with their food and were still looking at me. I couldn't stand it so I stood up and walked into the bedroom.

Jin's POV

"Why was he looking at me like that?" Hobi asked confused. "You don't remember anything from last night?" Kookie asked shooked "I only know that I hit myself in something so now I have a black eye" Hobi asked. Tae looked at me shook and I just gave him 'the I'll explain it to him later' look.

"Come on Hobi, you have to rest" I said and pulled Hobi up stairs into jis room. "Okey now Jin, can you please tell me what happened yesterday, cuz I saw the way Namjoon looked at me and I now something must have happene" he said as soon I closed his badroom dor.

"Okey now listen. Yesterday was my birthday as you know and you then throw me a surprice party. There was alcohol and you got so drunk. Then at one point you hugged me and kissed me. I kissed back, cuz I thought you were Namjoon. Then when we seperated our lips I saw that it was you. You then kissed me again so I pushed you and.....and punch you so would stop. Then I felt guilty and I gave you some ice and put you to bed"

Hobi looked shook and then added a bit angry "What are you still doing here?! It's so obiously that Namjoon saw our kiss. Go and tolk to him for God's sake!" I looked at him a bit shook "I stayed here with you cuz I felt guilty for that punch" I said not looking at him "Oh okey, but you had a fucking reason! I kissed you although you are dating Namjoon!" He yelled "Just go and talk to him!" He added and the I left.

Namjoon's POV

I heared someone walkint towards our room and quickly hid my food diary under a book. Yes I am staring writing it again. My eating is the only thing only I can control. I thought that I could control my love to Jin but I gues I was wrong. I just must not let him see that I'm doing it again.

"Namjoon, can we talk?" Jin started came into the room. "Yeah sure. What's up?" I said like nothing happened yesterday. "You saw what happened yesterday, didn't you?" I ignored him "Why are you ignoring me Kim Namjoon?" He said with his voice raised a bit "I am not!" I yelled back "Yes you are. Why didn't you answer my question?!" He replayed "Okey. Yes, I saw you kissing Hobi. You happy now?" I said back at him. "And I don't give a fuck if you did" I also added.

"You are not mad?" He asked with his puppy eyes. I couldn't look at him and Just said calmly "No, I'm not. I know he was drunk and I believe you pushed him away, didn't you" I know he didn't do it, I saw how he kissed him back. "Ofcourse I pushed him away" he said. Now I know he isn't telling me the truth.

"Okey then" I smiled at him "You wanna watch a movie and cuddle? I want to do something special for you since you are not mad" he said I nodded and he opened my laptop put on a romantic movie. He laied next to me and hugged me. I hugged him back as he started kissing my neck.

I kissed his forehead and remember my thoughts from 4 months ago "if you eat bad things will happened" it's actually true I started eating and the love if my life kissed another man. Soon I realised that Jin fell asleep so I was just left with my own thoughts.