This highway is so lonely and I feel so free at this moment. Music playing softly in the background while thinking, while in my feelings, wondering if this life I live will be over soon or I just started living. Thinking about my family, about the dark times we had and the times we lived carefree, not worrying if we have to be faking happiness.
Feelings? What are those? They are emotions that we can't control even if we tried. We try to keep them at bay but they just keep on overflowing, spilling into the deep. Can we keep our thoughts? Can we keep our demons from resurfacing at times we don't want them to? Can we put our minds, hearts & souls at ease or will they forever be storming? We wonder if our lives will ever change, will our dreams and hopes come true? Or will they just fade away into total darkness? Will we ever see the light at the end of the tunnel? The light they always tell us to look for?
We do things not to feel. We drink, we smoke, we self harm and we sometimes kill ourselves both physically and emotionally. We harm ourselves to get away from our emotions but not realizing that it won't help us cause when we come down from our high we go right back into it. Right back to feeling worthless, selfless & self-degrading.
How can we end this cycle? This cycle of frustration, hurt & sorrow? Someone, please tell me I would like to know.
A/N I wrote when I was listening to Halsey. She's so raw & pure & straight to the point.
