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rant

I have 3 episodes left but yesterday I didn't sleep all night/day bc I was watching Sherlock I mean I only slept for two hours also my family broke my computer so ;-; and my phone still doesn't a SIM card to start the phone I gotta sleep for at less one between four hours of sleep maybe less its 5:50 also I think I have a sleep disorder bc for school I couldn't fall asleep till two no matter what I did now I I stay up till six sometimes over each night and when I do go to sleep before six I get night mares I don't understand it not to mention when I wake up from crying in sleep and eyes red and pluffy no one questions it every one in my so called "family" HATES ME I don't know what I did I think they hate me bc I have depression suicide thoughts pretty bad anxiety and a sleep disorder they hate me and its not the depression talking my mom is mad at ME BC I GOT DEPRESSION BC NO ONE PAID ATTENTION TO ME ALWAYS TO MY SISTER she thinks there's no reason for me to have it and she is mad I me bc I don't open up to her

That's how I feel when I try to open up to her but when I do she gets mad at me and says its all in my head I want to yell at her DO YOU THINK I EANNA FEEL THIS WAY? But I go quiet and I feel like I can't breathe then she trys to get me stop watching certain youtubers like Thomas Sanders who I like watching he's videos btw they make me feel better about myself Shawn Dawson who is just really funny and can happy until I get yelled at for no reason here's some pictures that explains how I feel my everyday

Not to mention I wanna be transgender like be a boy but I don't even how I fuck am go to tell me mom not am done my rant thank you if you reader it don't really care if you didn't

Also when I typed in fuck if auto corrects to duck