Without you // Marcus & Martinus

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The nurse comes out with a sad face. I stand up fast.

''I'm sorry, Marcus Gunnarsen has passed away. He died to the injuries.'' She says. I don't do anything.

I don't cry, or show any emotions in general. I just sit back to the chair and stare blankly at the wall.

''The visiting time is over.'' Someone says. It's been like an hour, or two, or five seconds, I really don't know.

I don't react in any way. I just stare at the wall in front of me.

''Mr. Gunnarsen you have to leave.'' She says again. I still don't react. After a while I look up. She is still standing there.

''Can I go see him?'' I ask quietly. She nods. I get up, still not showing any emotion and sit by Marcus' bed. I look at him his face is pale.

Suddenly the tears start steaming down my face again, I can't see anything.

''Marcus I'm so sorry. Even tho I said I hate you, it isn't true. I love you, you're the best brother ever. Can you just wake up and say that this is a joke? You can't be dead!'' I cry and grab his hand.

He is really gone.

I will never hear his laugh, voice, see his smile, anything.

I look at his face.

I start crying even more and fall on the floor. After a while a nurse comes in and says I have to go.

I get up slowly and give Marcus one last hug and look at him.

''Goodbye Marcus, you're the best brother ever.'' I whisper and leave the room. Mom and dad already left so I have to walk.

But I don't go to home, I go to the forest where Marcus and I used to have fun and go on adventures.

I sit by our favorite rock, it's really big and we used to climb on it. I just don't get this, this must be a bad dream. Yeah, this is a dream. Soon I will wake up. Everything will be back to normal.

The only problem is, this is real. Marcus is gone.

I sit in the forest until it's dark. I could sit here all night. I still get up and go home. I go straight to my room.