I dont like myself very much. the world puts all these expeditions on us. I know i dont have the hard life and im just a normal girl. but I always want to be at my best. I always want to be this image i will never be. the "perfect" girl my parents and family want.
i want to express my beliefs and my sexuality, I can never do that now because parents always want you to be the way they raised you. I used to want to be the perfect child my mom and dad wanted me to be. I was the perfect child when i was the only. I dont spell thinks 10/10 every time, and i dont like to use caps when i type. I dont like to go outside or hang out with friends in public. I am a strange girl is what people say
most kids dont like me in gym because i dont like the sports they like.
i get complimented on these sports that i get pressured into joining them knowing i would hate it. but on the other hand my emo friends pressure me to. I feel like i have to like the music every one like. from the trash rap music to the emo patd music. I dont listen to music much and every one know it but they all complain or tell me you need to hear this song.
The way i dress is not good enough for anyone. i wear pants and sweaters and my mom complains, along with the girls in school. I put on shorts and my emo friends complain and dont wanna be seen with me. my mom claims the shorts are to "shot" because stores dont provide longer shorts for girls.
i feel like im obligated to be this perfect girl that no one will get.
i know the world has people with different opinions so i will never be perfect. i can never be the girl my friends want.
i stay basic as hell and every one liked me. i just didnt want to be the same my whole life.
i tried being a weeb and moved schools. every one there said i was a rude ass hole for not caring at that point.
then i became emo just to say i had my few true friends. because when you have all the friends in the world you dont ever know who your true friends are. im happy with a group chat with all my friends and thats like 5 people. im fine with that. as long as im ok. I realize who i am when i take a break for a while and spend time alone.
I like to have people to talk to all the time, i dont like much of the music in this world, sure i like shorts because i can, im sorry i cat like 2 people all the time. i try to live to exceptions but i just dont want to be looked down on or hated by any stereo types. i like to get along with all people. even the ones with the saddest of lifes you can find. i dont 100% know who i am or want to be. i just wanna be happy
just like what we all wish for
i am happy. I just want more to life and more options, and more poeple like me. i dont hate things all the time. but i like few things.
i like rainbows, and unicorns science i was a child. i know its childish for a middle school girl to have such interest, but i wanna be a child by heart
