Lost and Found Love

[Part Five]

Once school was over, Lijuan picked up Yifan and Zitao for Zitao's appointment. He was a little nervous but he needed this to know if he was able to go to America for further his music passion.

Yifan sensed his uneasiness and smiled reassuringly, "If it doesn't work out, I'm sure you can still go. They also do fashion and designing there. Isn't that another of your interests?" Zitao nodded, "It is. I'll try out for that too. I'll still apply for the music."

"Thats our Zitao!" Yifan grins.

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After the appointment, Zitao was given the bad news about his voice. He was disappointed but he still wanted to do both the music and the fashion/designing courses but he wasn't sure how he could do the music.

"Yifan... If I get in and you don't, what will I do?"  Yifan could see the unshed tears in Zitao's eyes. He pulled the younger close, "Everything will be fine. Don't stress about it." While he held the younger, Yifan had his doubts.

While at home, both teenagers were quiet and Lijuan was concerned for Zitao. She could tell that he wanted to hear good news about his vocals but deep down, she knew it wasn't going to be good. She tried to keep herself busy to distract herself at the thought of both of her boys going to America.

Yifan was silent in his room as he tried to help Zitao on the melody of his song but he could tell Zitao had lost interest and was focusing on the designing course. Yifan always gave Zitao input for his designs but Zitao still felt empty and even disappointment.

Why did it have to happen to me? All I wanted to do was be sucessful... Tears welled in his eyes as they dripped onto the page below him on Yifan's desk. He sniffles before burying his head into his hands, throwing down the pen. Yifan turns to see Zitao breaking down and he pulls the younger into his arms without a sound.

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Trying to drift off to sleep, Zitao couldn't help himself as he started to think of committing suicide. He knew he was ready to give up but when he heard his phone ring beside him, he turns to check who is calling him and he smiles before declining the call and texting the caller.

Why are you up still? - H.Z
I should be asking you the same question! - J.Z.D

Zitao hesitated, wondering if he should tell Zhongda. He shook his head before replying to Zhongda.

Is everything okay Zhongda? Its nearly two in the morning... - H.Z

Zitao waited for five minutes before he got a reply from Zhongda.

The music program I applied for rejected me... I want to have a career in music but where else can I try? I've applied to nearly every university that does music. - J.Z.D

Zitao read the message as he remembered that he saw a poster from SM Entertainment in South Korea for auditions coming up in a week. He quickly replied to Zhongda, explaining what he saw on the poster and by Zhongda's reply, he had cheered up before texting Zitao a good night. Zitao smiled and put his phone back on the bedside table before falling asleep, full of hope for himself and Zhongda.

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The next morning, Zitao woke up in a good mood as he worked on some designs of clothing, shoes and even a bedroom that hes always dreamed of having. He finds the email that Yifan had written down and emails the applications to each of the courses.

Yifan and Lijuan could hear Zitao moving around in his room before appearing for lunch. He had worked on all of his applications before lunch.

"What kept you so busy that you couldn't turn up for breakfast? Hm?" Lijuan teasingly scolded Zitao as he smiled innocently, "Mother! I was working on my applications! Anyway, I've already sent them off."

"What?! You have?!" Lijuan smiles and hugs Zitao before Yifan does and something stirs in his chest, something he has never felt before.