So let's start, I'm May. I'm a 14 year old girl in the USA that lives life not to the fullest, but I mean I plan on that later. Lets just say life is tough on all of us. It doesn't let people press the skip button on anything, we just have to deal with it.
Seems kind of harsh doesn't it? I guess you could say that, but I believe that if you love like a hippy and hug a tree you'll end up just fine. Metaphorically obviously, but trust me, this is how I learned to live by those two things.
I may be young, but this day and age, the young folk know alot more then others would have in other eras. Some think thats good, some think its bad. Its a good mixture of both if I'm completely honest. And well, things fucking happen.
This year, a lot of things happened. People discovered drugs, adult beverages, sex. You know, all the things they tell us not to do. As someone who is scared to death by her mother, I didn't do any of this. I became apart of something a lot different. Something that somewhat destroyed a good part of me.
But in the end, (spoiler alert) I'm still here.
This is something that's personal, very personal, but I'm willing share because I've recovered now. Let me just put it out there and explain around it.
I had/have an eating disorder.
I don't call it by its actual name because I believe if you name something, its yours forever. Kinda like a kid you know? Well I didn't want this to be something I had forever. Mine was basically I ate something, but it always felt like to much, and I threw it up willingly. This was like 2 years ago when I started, and about a year since I stopped. Or began stopping.
And on a side note, I tried to do it all on my own, because I'm a stubborn motherfucker.
Anywho, I started off by eating really small portions, distracting myself from throwing up (harmful ways but we won't go into that), and eventually I came out on top. I explained that a lot simpler than it actually was, but I'll spare you the awful details of what it implies.
BUT the moral of that short story is that even if you're the one that is putting yourself down, you can get through it. Some how, some way, you can do it. Thats hella cheesy but I believe the fuck out of that. I guess its something you have to believe if you're going through that?
I just know that my world was against me, but I got through it.
And that's all I could ever ask for.
