The Boy With Cancer

five (prt.2 of chp.4)

1:00am

I couldn't sleep so I tapped on Jack's shoulder thinking he would be up. When I tapped him he didn't move. He can't be...please god. "Jack. Jack . please wake up", I begged. When I didn't get a reply back. I screamed for the doctors to come in. I got out of the bed as the doctors rushed in. "What were you guys doing all night", she asked.

"We're just talking and then we had fell asleep", I said. Danny hurried up and got me out of there. I hugged him. " Everything is gonna be okay",he reassured me. Everything is not okay the guy that I love could possibly die. I don't wanna stay here I wanna go home ,but I he needs me. I heard yelling I ran to his room and saw the doctors trying to get him to calm down. "JUST LET ME DIE", he yelled. I started crying. " He's ready to go",I said.

Its hard to accept it but if he wants to die...just let him. It took awhile for them to get him to calm down,but they eventually did. "Babe", he called. He didn't look so  good. His blue eyes were no longer blue. They were dull. "I'm still here", I said. He grinned. "When I die open the letter. Don't hesitate." I held his hand to my cheek. "Ok." He looked at me."Babe you've been crying." Those words didn't come out as a question they came out as a statement. "Yeah I have. The thought of losing you ...just", I said. His family entered the room. I looked at there faces. They knew Jack was dying. His aunts gave him a hug and his mom...brought me to tears. Well seeing everyone share there last hug and kiss was sad.

" Babe come here ",he commanded. I walked over to him. " I love you and I'm sorry this love couldn't last longer for us,but I'll always be here",he said. A tear rolled down my cheek. "I'll always remember you as the guy who ate cake off the floor." Everyone laughed. "I love you too and this isn't your fault", I said. I had to lighten the mood. He sat up a little. He pulled my face close to his. I smiled as his lips touched mine. I forgot his family was there. I stopped myself. He smirked. " I'll die happy." I laughed a little. He laid back down.

As he took his last breath he was holding my hand. I didn't let go.

A loud beeping sound went off. That's when we all realized Jack had passed. The room was so quiet the only thing that wasn't silent was his mom weeping. I looked at his face. He had a smile on his face. I started crying. I stopped holding his hand and put his hand over his stomach. I kissed his lips one last time. I know he won't kiss me back. I reached down in my pocket and found the letter. I went to the waiting room to read it.

Dear Lizzy,

If your reading this it must mean that I'm dead. I love you so much baby girl. I remember when we first met you stepped on my shoe. You were so shy. That's what I loved about you. I fell in love with you when I first saw you smile at me and laughed. I never stopped loving you. I was to afraid to tell you because I thought you wouldn't fell the same way. So I figured I'll tell this year. I gave you something look in your left pocket. Spread love to everyone and everything that needs it. Its Ok to cry because last night I cried. I didn't want to lose you. I love you baby.

                        -Jack
I couldn't get through the whole thing without crying. I felt so bad I didn't know he liked me. If I would have known our relationship would have lasted longer. I dug in my left pocket and felt a bracelet. When I took a good look at it. I realized it was a friendship bracelet Jack had given me. I threw the bracelet at Jack when he made me mad. I forgot what he did it was so many years ago. I can't believe he kept it all these years.

***
Its the week of the funeral and I'm not doing so well. I've been crying my eyes out. It's just unbelievable that he's gone. His mom really took it hard. I could understand that she has to watch her baby boy be buried in the ground. When it should be the other way around.

I wasn't paying attention to a word the preacher said. I just kept staring at the casket hoping he would call my name. Walk out the casket and kiss me,but that was a fantasy this is reality. I cried some more. When the funeral was over we went to his parents house.

I hugged his mom. His hugged back. "Thank you for being strong for our boy", Mr. Webber said. I smiled. "No problem." I couldn't cry now not in front of his parents. I gave them some flowers and walked away. I went home changed and stared at my picture of me,Jack,Amy,Becca,and Rebecca. We were at the carnival we took pictures and this one was my favorite.

The bad thing about someone dieing is that life doesn't stop it keeps going. I just wish the time would stop. I can always reply the moments we shared together,but I can't relive them. I laid there on my bed thinking. As I thought about him the tears poured down. I felt my bed move. "I know your sad. It'll get better", Danny said. "Why him", I asked.

I felt him shrugged. "I don't know why. Maybe it was his time." I sat up. "But it hurts. You may not understand because you still have Gretchen so I don't matter." He looked at me."I don't understand what's its like to lose the one you love ,but maybe you can help me understand. " I laid back down. "Danny just leave me alone please. I wish you would stop acting like my dad and be my brother. You can't be both."

He didn't say anything. I heard the door shut and that was it. I got up and threw everything off my dresser. I was devastated. I laid down closed my eyes and dreamed about what our life could of been.