Crazy Mad

Love ?

I woke up the next morning to no one in the house , my mom was not in her room which is odd cause she never really leaves her room till 2 o'clock , but It was 6 and I needed to get ready for school and not really worry where she could have gone . She was probably out drinking and then got to drunk and lost where she was or something , I walks back in my room and get dressed ,

Ariana's outfit ^

After I get dressed I walk downstairs and grab my bag and walk out the door to my porch , I go down the steps to the sidewalk and start to walk to school . I oddly didn't see or hear the twins behind me or trying to catch up to me , When I think about it I didn't even see Grayson at the party , I can't think of them I have to think where the hell my mom went and if Mia made it home . I arrive at school and see rose but she looks way different,

What Rose is wearing ^

I've never seen rose look so ...I don't know ...Look so girlish I guess. Rose would wear some girly stuff but this was 100 time weirder then what she wears . As I walk toward her two other girls go next to her and then look at me like if I'm intruding on a conversation,

" Hey Rose "

I say standing there look at her waiting for her response,

" Hey Sammy , you lost "

I look at her confused and she knows I hate being called that ,

" I mean I would not be surprised your not very self direct , I bet it's easy for you to get lost "

I can't believe she even said that to me , I don't know what was going on or what changed her but I did not like it ,

" Umm no I'm not lost I just wanted to talk to to you about something "

" Well before you talk about what ever pointless thing you have to talk to I'd like to introduce you "

" To who ?"

The two girl look at me and give me some sort of like death stare ,

" Silly girl "

Rose says and takes a step back for the other girls to sorta step forward,

" Hi I'm Ericka "

One of the girls say ,

"And I'm Tessa "

The other one says , I already knew I wasn't gonna like them knowing they looked like total "IT" girls . At this very moment I felt like I was in the movie Mean Girls and I was not ready to about to be scared off by Rose and her so called minions now,

" well it was umm ....something to meet you both but I guess I'll be going now ..."

" Weren't you gonna tell me something?!"

" Not anymore ., I mean ....not like you would care right ? "

I say with some sass and walk away acting like it didn't bother me , it did a little though I'm not gonna lie , Rose the only other person I trusted GONE , out of my trust circle .....I was really scared more people changed like Mia . Mia was my home girl hopefully she didn't turn into a two faced bitch too . I walked to my locker expecting the worst to come and knock down my parade or what I thought was going well , when I got to my locker I saw that Mia wasn't there and straight away thought that I had lost her too . I was slowly loosing people I thought I trusted , I opened my locker and placed things I didn't need at the moment inside and closed it and walks down the hall , alone . I was still trying at least to find Mia and ask what's going on but it's like she didn't exist anymore, she was gone or I wasn't looking good enough. I walked to were I would sit if Mia was absent on days , and what I saw was truly disturbing . I saw Mia and Grayson making out , The Grayson I have a crush on and she knows that ! I don't say anything and just walk away . I wanna cry so much but I can't let it out , I have to stay strong . He didn't even mean that much to me , or did he , I couldn't have had that kind of feelings for him that's weird . I don't ......Love him ....., he's just some kid that would never notice me and now that is already taken . Love is stupid and is a pointless emotion , It was Love I was feeling at this moment wasn't it ? What is love really ? Was it something that would be pointless to me or should I have never let what I saw go that easily .