Cold Feet H.S

Summer Part 1

July 3, 2010

  It was 4:37 am when they came for my sister. The military camp where they come and take you away for better discipline and my fathers last hope of saving my sister from her addiction to crack . Today is also the day I leave for the high schools summer camping trip.  I hadn't packed yet although my Aunt will be picking me up at 6:00.  I do not wish to attend , I am the youngest  of all my peers , and probably the smartest of my sophomore class. I have exactly 4 friends and 7 frenemies. I am unliked by the popular boys because I do not allow them to cheat off of me and despite there best efforts to subdue me , I have never given into their antics of flirtation and bribery.

 I look at my firsts steps off my bed and headed towards my closet to retrieve my suit case. I then go into my bathroom and get all body wash and other personal care items. I had already removed the gym clothes, shorts , shirts, and  shoes from my draws and proceeded to fold them into the suit case. by the time I was done packing and tiding up my room and bed. My alarm clock went off on my phone, I quickly turned it off and re-entered the bathroom. Talking a few moments to look into the mirror I began to undress. By the time I was in my underwear my dad was knocking on my bedroom door to unsure that I was awake. " Listen pal, your aunt be here soon ... and I-I , I'm going to work right now so you'll be by yourself for a while." , I could almost see the tears in his eye, I could hear it in his voice. It used to be so deep and strong. But it faded along with my mother , then a bit more on my sisters 17th birthday when he got a call from Cedars-sinai Medical Center saying his step daughter overdosed on ecstasy. " Okay ,Daddy see you soon!  I love you ." I yelled , " Okay , love you to pal.". 

  After my shower I checked my phone for the time , it was now 5:47 , I quickly get dress and grab my 2 bags and suit case and run down stairs. Only 3 waffles and 4 pop tats later my phone rings." Hey sugar babe , I'm pulling up outside , need any help with of those bags you have ", she spoke with such excitement and joy at 6 in the morning . I wouldn't and absolutely couldn't fathom the thought of being so happy so early in the morning. I'm barely functioning by 12 pm. I walk outside and load my belongings into the car , and before i know it we are out of san fransico and heading towards the mountains.

  " When we get there I want you to go find a consoler and tell them your name , you don't talk to anybody else until you get settled . Understood Lila , I understand that your father paid extra fore the luxury package correct." her voice is always so perky and cheerful. " Yes TT Kerstin" , mine so dull and empty . " Also try to avoid boys, these kids are a bit older than you okay.", I forget almost of my age difference between me and my class mates, but I only speak to girls, well 2 of which are gay but they prefer the title and I do not mind at all . it is who they are, they've known who they are , although they are not born in their true skin. They are the most authentic people I know , they are living. " Then why am I here, I just want to stay home with Casey , why can't she come to. " , I knew well where she had gone despite my father wishing I didn't. I take of her. After her sickness came to light , I bathed her , fed her and made sure her school work was being completed.  " She's at a camp of her own", why do adults lie, why not be honest. They say one day I will understand , but this is not the first time my sister has disappeared , nor the second. Our mother protected us for so long but never prepared her for the betray of her father or the look of lust her step father would give her. She and our mother had indistinguishable looks, and months after her death he longed for my mothers touch again. With the long black hair slim nose , and only 1 chin dimple, the only thing unrelated was age and sickness. But now the drugs have broken my sister , but hers is not and will not be my story to tell.

  As we arrive to the camp location , I see only half of my student body moving in a foolish manner  , some even inappropriately consuming each other in presents . after we moved and my sisters accident I was enrolled in a private school with most of the riches teens in my area. Our classes were small unlike my old city and the clicks were more brutal but you only had to worry about your parents actions and who you slept with. As we pull in and park my aunt turns to me and speaks," Remember to say your full name , and goodbye , make us pride back home", she's forgotten that I will only be gone 3 weeks. I climb out of the car grab my 3 bags from the back and walk off waving to her. I the look up to the cabin signs and follow them to check in. There was a short line , and to my surprise I see an unfamiliar body ahead of me. I ignore it and walk forward closing the new gap between us. its been a good 4 min wait until it is his turn. " Umm, Hi ... I'm uh.. I'm Harry ", the boy speaks so slow and so unsteady , he's English or British or something like that. " Harry what ?" , said the director. " Styles , Harry Styles " , He then turns his head and catches a glimpse of me , he stares , no he's staring . We are having a full blown staring competition . I say " Hi" my voice a bit high pitched and he says , " Um, Hi.. Hello" , and it makes me smile and I look deeper into his eyes and I notice the freedom inside his eyes , so green and wild and beautiful. Like the dreams I used to have or at least the last dream I had , before they turned into night terrors. " Mr.Styles some one will be by to take your bags and after your cabin buddy arrives we will have you escorted on a tour as well as present the rules. Hope you have a great experience ", harry had focused his attention to her by the time she was done talking. Harry picked up his bag and turned to me and spoke " Do you mind waiting for me , you're kinda the first person to talk to me .. uhh , I'm new . ", by this time I noticed how large his hands were and how I felt open to a friendship with him, but also I was jelouse , I don't know of why but I was." sure ", I said with a smile on my face he then offered to take one of my bags and I let him.

  After the lady pretty much told me the same thing she told Harry , I met up with him near the lobby of a large wooden building, as we walk inside we check our bags in and get our cabin and room numbers. after walking further we are told the camp rules but harry snoozed off half way through the slide show and missed the sexual harassment skit. After 10 minutes ,his head found its way on my shoulder and I felt the urge to sleep as well. I shook him awake while the other students applauded . We stood and on golf carts we were taken to our rooms.