Crimson Paintings

No more secrets

Yesterday was the last day of school. You would think that would make me excited and happy, but no, it's doesn't. All it means is that I get to be around my family more, and that is way worse than dealing with boring school days and bullies. Summer's here are always above 90 degrees. It's always hot, and I always want to wear summer clothes and swim. Unfortunately for me, I can't because I have to keep my fucking scars covered. Lexi can't even see them, she would leave, I know it. My mom doesn't care, in fact, she wishes I would cut to deep and bleed out to death. As for my dad, I don't even know where he is, or even if he's still alive. My dad left us when I was only seven. My mom said he left us cause of me, but I don't think she's right. I remember how my dad was with me, he would play with me and take me on road trips, and our favorite place, the coffee shop down the road. I don't know why he left us, I wish I did, I wish I knew where he was.
But I don't. So I just hold on to the memories I have with him. Hoping that, one day, he will come back. As much as I miss him, he's gone, and I'm stuck with my mother until I'm eighteen. I decided to go to our coffee shop to think. It was a calm place, and the smell of coffee always seemed to calm me down. I ordered my usual extra dark chocolate mocha and sat down at the table waiting for my coffee. It didn't take more than two minutes, this place was never really that busy. I took a deep breathe, smelling that wonderful smell of coffee. I smiled sadly at my coffee. Wishing that my dad was sitting in front of me, smiling back at me like he used to. A tear threatened to escape my eye and I blinked away, getting up to leave. I have the nice lady a tip and left. The warm summer air hit my face as I walked out the door. It wasn't too hot today, that's good. As I walked I made a list of things I could do today. I could text Lexi, she always had a giant list of things to do. It's either Lexi's long tiring list of things, or home. I made no hesitation to text Lexi.
Me- hey lex. Wanna hang out?
It took only seconds for her to reply. Which don't surprise me. She had probably just woke up.
Lexi- Yes! Don't I always?
Me- Haha yes. Where do you want to meet?
Lexi- My house. Got lots of things to do, Like always ;)
Me- Ok. Be there in ten :)
I shoved my phone back into my pocket and walked to lexis house.
I didn't even bother to knock, I usually get in trouble for knocking. They say I'm practically family so I can just walk in. Lexi was sitting on the couch. When she heard the door open she ran to hug me. "Jeez Lex you saw me like yesterday. Your going to suffocate me" I said trying to free myself if the death hug.  She laughed and grabbed my arm, pretty much dragging me to her room. "Ok so I decided first we would do our makeup. Then were going to see if the guys can hang out. And I don't what else to do but the boys always have ideas." She said winking at me for the last part. I laughed. "Your such a perv." "Am not! I just like guys!" She yelled trying to cover her dirty minded plan. I just shook my head and laughed. "Hey so I was thinking about dressing you. You never let me do it. Please!" She asked giving me puppy eyes. I decided why not. I mean it not like much could go wrong. "Sure go ahead. Only this once." She smiled brightly. Boy was I wrong. She gave me the choice of a blue summer dress, a white tank top with words and booty shorts, or a crop top and leggings. I decided on the summer dress, it covered the most skin. "I'll choose this, but do you have a long sleeve dress coat or something?" I asked discreetly trying to make sure my cuts were covered. "Ummm, no. You never show your arms though. Come on they aren't gross looking. You got sexy arms!" She said wagging her eyebrows at me. Shit, I'm screwed. I'll just keep my arm hidden. Again, I couldn't have been more wrong. "Why." She asked out of nowhere. I gave her a confused look. She grabbed my arm. "Why do you do this? Why don't you tell me?" She said and tears welled up in her eyes. I didn't know what to say, or do. I was so scared. I didn't want her to find out, she would leave me. She was my only friend. "Don't leave me." Was all I said. She frowned as tears streamed down her cheeks. "Why would I leave you?" She said as her voice cracked. "I don't know. I thought you would see me as weak or stupid like everyone else once you saw them." "No! I would never leave you. Your my best friend, my sister. I would never leave you for something as stupid as this. In fact all I would do is try to help you, I'd be there even more for you." "Really?" She nodded her head. "Of coarse, I love you like a sister. Sisters don't leave ever." She paused for a second. "But why do you do it?" I started crying. I didn't want to, but I told her everything. To be honest, it felt good to get it off my chest. I was done being a secret. Now I have someone I can tell anything, I always have. Lexi hugged me. "No more secrets ok? You can tell me anything. I will always be here for you. Now come on, let's go hang out with some hotties" I nodded my head and laughed. No more secrets sounded good to me.

A/N: Hey guys! Sorry for not updating like I said I would. It's been a rough summer. Anyways, thank you for those of you who read my book. Please share and vote. Comment your thoughts, but please no rude comments. No one said you had to read, if you don't like it don't read it. Thank you :)