Love is superficial. You think you have found it, only for it to slip right through your fingers in the end. You think that you have finally found happiness until something goes wrong and it all falls apart.
I was in love once. Yeah, lesbians can fall in love too. News flash, just because we like the same sex doesn't mean that we are any less human than the cis males and females that are around us. She was my everything. I would bleed for her, die for her. Apparently I was the only one to feel that way though.
Two years of a wonderful relationship was thrown away when she asked if we could "talk". I could tell from her tone that she was going to break up with me. What I didn't know was why. Why would she want to end what we had? Why was she becoming so distant all of a sudden?
I found out why soon enough. Her ex girlfriend had come back to town after being away for five years. Five whole mother fucking years. You can imaging my surprise when she told me that she still had feelings for her. What about me, huh? Had she even felt anything towards me at all? Was every "I love you" a lie?
That's when I realized that it doesn't matter how much you love someone. You can care all you want, but it won't matter if they don't love you back. You can never compare your love for someone with their own because you have no idea how much they actually care about you. Your love for them could either outshine their own, or be so small in comparison that it makes them look like a fool.
Why do we have to fall in love just to be pushed aside? Why do we have to care so much just to have them disregard our feelings? Why does falling out of love have to hurt so fucking bad?
