Smile - A Tythan Fanfiction

Cookies

Ethan sat cross legged on the counter, mixing the cookie mix in the bowl. He's struggling a little because, cookie mix is hard to stir after a while.

Mark watches, sipping his coffee, "So, do cookies not make you happy?"
"Markkkk" Ethan whined, "We've been over thisss!"
"I know I know I'm just, stumped" he hummed, watching him, "I mean, what are in those pills?"
"Dopamine, the stuff you get after doing something crazy like uhh, jumping from a cliff and living. Then I think serotonin, oxytocin." He explained, "They go into my brain and wait to be realsed at their natural times. But I'm no doctor so I can't really tell you anything about this stuff, this is just what I've pieced together"
"Still meticulous, don't you think? Not like, saying this is a good thing. No, it's awful and I'm so sorry you have to suffer this way but still, woah" Mark hummed, looking back over to him, "I mean, is this common?"
"I mean, yeah? Not to common but some people with depression have it as well"

Ethan kept trying to mix the large bowl of cookie mix. He's over mixed it but doesn't exactly care, he's having too much fun to care right now.

"So" Mark starts, "Are you depressed?"
"The answer may shock you" he mumbled, "Yeah Mark- I'm depressed without my medication. I have no feeling- I feel empty without them but I feel somehow even more empty without Tyler with me. With his arms around me, telling me it's okay to be scared, it's okay to cry. Because pain will end and soon it'll be a new day, we don't have to hide how we feel no more. It's okay for a man to cry as much as it is for a women. I don't need to be scared to be myself-"
"Then why didn't you tell him?"

Ethan sighed softly, putting the batter next to himself, "Why? I was scared. I let my fear of rejection get to me and I felt myself losing my other half. No, I couldn't do it. I couldn't have risked losing one of the most important things in my life because I couldn't have truly loved him until I have those pills. How do you think I felt loving someone but never knowing it's true cos I couldn't feel happy about it? All I could feel is the negatives, the bad side of relationships. I didn't even know be was gay because that never comes up in conversation!"

Mark took a deep breath, putting his coffee down beside himself. He stood, making his way to the angry blue boy. He then looked at the cookie dough. The older male got put a sheet tray, lining it for Ethan and putting the cookies onto the tray. He made sure the oven was hot, as Ethan couldn't check himself. Then put it in with an oven glove.

"I understand, your frustration" Mark finally said, looking back up to Ethan. He took off the gloves, "The person I love may never love me back either but it doesn't mean I get angry about it. But I see passion in your eyes, the same passion I had years ago. You do love him- that's for sure. You didn't need any pills go confirm that burning passion and desire you have for Tyler. Did you know I was once depressed? Probably not. In that time, I met them. Even though I still struggled to feel anything, I still had this passion for them I couldn't quite place just yet. No, not yet. Not until I met them in real life- we had an amazing time and all that pain felt like it was lifted off my shoulders-"
"Mark, who is it?"

Mark froze, but then gave a warm smile. He ruffles Ethan's hair, turning back to the couch. He walked over, grabbing his coffee from before. Then turned back to face Ethan, "You don't need to worry about that, my boy"

Ethan watched as Mark left, still wondering who this person could be. Then his mind went back to cookies, so he hopped off the counter top and crouched down in front of the oven. When he noticed their down, he opened up the oven and grabbed the burning hot tray with his hands, putting it into the counter top and then closed the over, turning off the oven.

He was about to do something else when he looked at his hand- they seemed to be bubbling up. Shit, "TYLER, MARK!"

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Hey guys, so this is a weird announcement but I am actually writing Smile to be it's own book. As in, not fanfiction, to be sold at shops and stuff. I am using paragraphs from the book and changing things to fit in different characters. But this book won't be affected so don't worry about it!