BEGININGS AUTHORS NOTE:
so, here it goes. I am writing these as letters. these are because I don't have the guts to tell her In person. maybe one day I will but as for now its going on here.
they wont be really long, and some will be short.
I write them as I please and until my heart is content.
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Dear S, 04-02-2014
You my darling seriously have made me whole.
I was whole once before you but that was when I was too young to hurt, too young to love, and too young to feel actual fear, fear of losing someone to dear and close to my heart.
you have become my addiction and talking to you is my fix.
I honestly meant to keep my walls up but every time I talk to you I feel my wall slowly sliding down and my heart slowly opening to you in caution,
for so long I have felt chained, binded, glued, and stuck. stuck to feelings that I thought I could only feel forever.
I can be in the lowest of low and you pick me up and bring me to my feet.
I instantaneously feel happier and lighter
I love you
I love your flaws
I love your imperfections
I love you
most importantly I love you for all that makes you beautiful
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you have helped me so much. you let me vent my feelings and you let me just talk. your selflessness is what got to me. the fact that you still talk to me is outrageous. the fact that you WANT to talk to me is crazy.
you are always there for me when ever ive fallen and it seems as if I cant get back up.
in return I promise that I will ALWAYS be there for you..
I know right now you love some one else right now but in time maybe you can learn to love me.
I just hope you want to be with me as much I as want to be with you.
that you want to hold my hand as much as I want to hold yours.
that you want our lips to collide I much as I want it.
that you want to hold me through the night as much as I want to hold you.
but most of all, that you love me as much I love you.
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you drive me crazy!
you have not a clue.
the way you put yourself down truly drives me nuts.
you my lady are beautiful.
you are so valuable.
you have so much potential.
those things that you say you are, aren't true whatsoever.
you are only those things if you see yourself that way.
but babe don't let a simple word define who you are, let your amazing personality define you.
you can only be wonderful things if you believe you are.
you are only beautiful if you see yourself that way.
no matter what you or anyone else says.
I think, no wait I know!
that you are beautiful, amazing, pretty, kind, and gorgeous.
anyone who tells you different doesn't deserve a second thought.
I love you darling.
sincerely
Crazy in love.
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these letters are real.
on this "story"
I would like to receive POSITIVE feedback.
this is only to get certain feelings out.
thank you for your time:)
