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Author's Note

I realize it has been a long time since I updated this story and for that I'm really sorry. I'm also sorry that this, unfortunately, is just an author's note and not an actual chapter.

The reason I haven't updated so long is because I don't exactly know where I want to go with this story. I don't know what my end-game really is other than vague ideas of what I want the reader to feel and I want this story to be really good. I don't want to take it down later because things don't meet up or because I left unexcusable gaping holes in the plot.

That being said, I took this time to work out some of the general plot for the story to follow, and I will tell you now, this is not a romance. There won't be any real relationships in this other than platonic friendships (and those will be few and far between) as the main character is intended to feel isolated and alone. If I end up changing my mind and include a relationship it will likely be one sided and harmful, such as a physically or emotionally damaging relationship is.

I also want readers to be able to connect with the protagonist in some form, and that has been my biggest challenge so far. Everyone is different, and I realize this, so many protagonists have a very strong and wide personality to attempt to cover as many aspects as the reader may have. Karen is, to put it simply, a very flat character. I want to build her personality more as the story goes on, but I believe I may have to rework her character entirely from the beginning before I continue. I don't like the way she turned out in Entry 01 and I think she could use a little tweaking before I publish Entry 02 as already the two chapters are not meeting up with her person. I don't expect every reader to connect with her, but I do hope that at the very least she seems... human. I personally am already disliking the character (hence the changes I need to make) and I know I need to do better with her.

Also, many of you likely found this story because I added SCP tags to it. Yes! This is a fanfiction and much of the story will take place in a facility from the SCP mythos. Many authors who I've seen write SCP fanfictions on here do it in a very soft light; something which I think clashes greatly with the whole idea of SCP. For example: In many fanfictions, reader/protagonist is "immune" or "special in some way" that prevents [Insert SCP number here] from killing them and [Insert SCP number here] grows feelings for protagonist. Time passes, then it all leads to kiss kiss make babies. Not to rag on any authors of this type of SCP fanfiction(as many of these authors have a very likeable writing style that makes me enjoy the story regardless). I personally just find it very contradictory.

Because of this, I don't expect my story to get very popular as I'm "going against the grain" here and writing something a lot harsher than what most readers seem to enjoy.

This story is intended to be dark. It's not suited for younger audiences because this will have some very violent scenes in it depicting torture and murder as well as very strong language. The protagonist will be broken down at many points and sometimes won't be able to build herself up before she is knocked down once more, and because of this I have no doubt in my mind I will include some potentially triggering self-harm/depressing scenes. Now, I do not in any way romanticize self harm or depression nor do I intend to cause emotional distress to my readers, so potentially triggering chapters will be marked with a * as well as a warning at the beginning of the chapter.

Again, so sorry this isn't an update, and I hope to update soon. This was just to get some of my thoughts out and explain my, er, absence as well as where this story is going/what I want it to be. Big thanks to any readers who have stuck around!