"Are you sure you're ok?"
"Yes, I'm ok."
"We can always talk about it if you want."
"There's really nothing to talk about."
"Look, If you ever need someone to talk about it, I'm willing to listen."
"I appreciate that." I said while eyeing the door. "Um, can I go now Miss. Kim?"
"Ya sure go to lunch, Sapphire."
Right when I got out, Vanessa bombarded me with questions.
"What was that all about? Did she asked about it? Did you tell her? You're not going to tell anyone? Are you?" Vanessa asked.
"She think something going on just cuz im not as happy as usual." I said
"Wait, so did you tell her?"
"No, of course not."
"Oh,ok"
"I just don't want anyone except you knowing about it."
"But if you told her, you could have gotten help."
"I don't need help. I can handle this."
"I just don't want to see you sad."
"Don't worry about it."
"But your my friend"
"Look, it's my problem and if I needed someone, we wouldn't have this conversation."
"Ok I get it but you know, you don't need to pretend in front of me."
"I'm not pretending"
"Stop lying. I know your not happy."
"I might not be happy but I'm not going to show it", I tell her as we get in line.
We both end up getting the same food we always get in this awful place. Turning around I tried looking a for an empty place we both can sit.
"Damn, there's no place for us to sit in this orange stain mad house." I joke
"Look there's one at the corner."
As we walk toward the corner, I notice how every girl we pass they would stop what they were doing and stare at us, while we walk pass them.
"Haha I think this girls are scared of us. Can you believe it all this girls scared of a little girl." I said to try to lighten the mood.
"Why are you trying to hide behind that smile of yours"
"Huh, what are you talking about?" I say as I give her a crazy look
"That! Thats what I'm talking about, always trying to hide your problems with that smile of yours."
"I'm not hiding anything. Much less a problem"
"Stop lying to yourself. I know what's bothering you and I think you should just tell them who really did it."
"OH MY GOD! Not this again. I thought I told you not to worry about it."
"But it's getting to the point that someone needs to help you before it's too late."
"It's already too late'
"It's never too late, to tell them the truth."
"I'll never tell them."
"It would help you, they might even let you out of this place."
"I'll still would never till them."
"Even when you're having nightmares about that night?"
" I will never betray my brother."
"I knew it. It's always because of him."
I look away from her piercing stare and play with my food.
"That's right look away. You know what he did was wrong, yet here you are smiling the day away. His such a disgusting little freak. He should be in jail." She continues.
I was never good at handling arguments. I always panic and try to please the other person, just so we wouldn't argue anymore. But for some reason when she talk about my brother as if he was something bad, I just couldn't let her get away with it.
"Don't you dare talk about him like that."
"Oh please, I can talk about him anyway I want too.Anyways it's not like you can do anything." She says with a smirk.
"How dare you. I would never be in this mess if it wasn't for you!" I scream
"Oh so now you're blaming this on me?!? Who was it that asked me to help them get rid of that guy? Huh? Who was it?!? Tell me!" She waits for me to answer. But only waits for a second.
"Why aren't you answering me huh? Is it cuz you know who really is to blame?"
"No,no it wasn't his fault." I say, while shaking my head. I then remember those awful nightmares.
