Depressing stuff.

I don't know if I can keep going...

I... I don't know what to do anymore.... All of my life I've just been someone in the background... But when will I ever fucking matter to someone!?.when will anyone fucking care enough to see that inside I'm dieing! I want to fucking die! But I stay to help people BUT THEN WHEN I NEED HELP NO ONE IS FUCKING THERE!

IF I DIED TOMORROW WOUKD ANYONE EVEN CARE!

....would anyone ever see my grave and feel sadness or would it be a relief to everyone so that they didn't have to deal with me...