Xachariel : The Fourth Brother ✔

Four

Four
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"Lucifer!" I gasped again, louder this time. "That's not... You can't..." My mind whirled with confusion and I couldn't think of a word to speak of.

I inhaled a deep breath and began to speak, "Lucifer," I paused to swallow, "You must have been mistaken. There is no reason for Father to betray us. We have been loyal to him and He loves us, brother. He loves us. He would never betray us!"

My voice was loud when I finished speaking. I wasn't sure of whether I was upset with him for thinking such. But on the other hand, Lucifer's wisdom surpassed any of Yehovah's creation. His wisdom was guaranteed. However, I still believed in Father's unconditional love above all. He created me. He created us. I couldn't quite be assured of his betrayal.

Why would he?

Lucifer lifted his teary eyes and looked straight into my eyes. The radiant in his eyes seemed to burn more but it seemed odd. There was something else in his eyes. Anger. He looked almost angry.

"Oh, but He has, brother. You're too young. You wouldn't know." Lucifer covered his eyes with a hand and sobbed.

I felt sadness.

"How?"

"He is making mankind... Out of matter in His own image. Mankind will rule over Eden and all the creation in it. And He calls them His children."

I was quiet. I contemplated but it didn't occur to me the reason why Lucifer should say Father had betrayed us just because he was planning to make mankind to rule over Eden. Eden was not a part of heaven. Its purpose was set for a different realm. I couldn't see a reason why he should be upset about it.

"Why, Lucifer? What could be wrong with it? I do not see how!" I flustered in confusion.

"Of course, you wouldn't. You're just a child," he replied lowly, "In all these eons we have been serving him, singing praise to him, has he ever called us his children?!"

The answer was 'No' but I held it back.

"What is the reason behind this man ruling over Eden? What has he done for Him that He favors him so much! Despite our loyalty, we are always treated as inferior creatures bound to glorify him. Are we nothing to Him?" Lucifer threw his hands upwards in frustration.

"Lucifer, stop. Speak no further," I said with a tone of command I had never used on Lucifer or any of my brothers.

There was clearly something wrong with Lucifer. We were not in any position to object Yehovah's will. We are his creations and we should always be grateful to Him, serve Him, sing for Him, praise Him... If that was the only reason Father created us for; to worship Him. We should do it. I would do it. I was grateful to Him for creating me. And I had never doubted His love.

"Think of it, Brother," Lucifer's voice begged in sweetness, "Why has Father favoured Man so much above us?"

"Do you wish to rule Eden, Lucifer?" I asked, staring deep into the passionate burning of his eyes. There was no space for tactfulness.

"Oh. Not at all, Xachariel!" Lucifer grabbed my shoulders in his firm grip and bore his sad eyes into mine, "I just don't want to lose Father's love. Do you want to lose Father's love?"

"Of course NOT, Lucifer!!" I shouted loudly.

I couldn't understand what was happening to me. As the fire in Lucifer's eyes burned into mine through the pained gaze of his, I felt foreign emotions gushing through me; emotions that don't exist in heaven. Worry. Anxiety. Pain. Anger... And Fear; fear of losing Father's love. I felt my being quiver in sadness and overwhelmed emotions.

"Speak no further of this matter to me. I cannot bear it," I said in lowered tone, turning my face away from him.

There were tears in my eyes too. The thought of losing Father's love pained me wordless.

"Have you spoken to Michael? Or Gabriel?" I asked in a weak voice.

Lucifer remained quiet for a moment until he answered, "Yes. I have. It pained them too and I doubt they would want to be reminded of it."

We fell into deep silence again until he asked me in a timid tone, "Do you doubt me, beloved brother?"

There was no surety anymore. As I have said before, Lucifer's wisdom was unlike any of us. He was the nearest to God and he would possibly know things we couldn't even come close to. However, as much as I trusted him, I trusted Father more.

Yet, to ease his pain, I answered, "No, Lucifer. I don't doubt you. You just don't want to lose Father's love just as the rest of us."

"But you speak as though you no longer has trust in me."

I turned back to face him, "Of course not. I trust you."

"So far as to pledge your loyalty to me?"

I drew my sword in an instant and fell on my knees before him, "I pledge my soul and service to you, Lucifer. I will go wherever you go. I am willing to do anything to earn Father's love back."

And thus with willingness, I was bound to him... Unaware of the consequences; that this pledge would seal my soul from heaven forever. Never did it cross my mind that Lucifer would even think of standing up against Yehovah. I thought his only intention was to earn Yehovah's love back. I was wrong. I never knew of the inequity that Lucifer had bred deep down in him.

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Love, Hermyne