TRAPPED

Phobophobia

Do you ever heard about Phobobhobia? 

Then, how about one of President Roosevelt's famous speech, "the only thing we need to fear is fear itself"?

People might find the meaning behind the word but not to me, who take it as it is...

It might be odd, and illogical. But it's true that I'm afraid of my own fear. Meanwhile with my messed life, I have tons of things to be afraid of...

Let's see...

- Reborn

- bullies

- maths

- My dangerous friends

- my fate to become a Mafia boss

- bugs in general

- complete darkness

- small, suffocating places

- high places

- possible DANGEROUS enemies

- blood

- dogs

- snakes

- and all of those dangerous animals

- Thunderstorms

---- and much, much more...

I've known about this condition of mine from the Symptoms. Such like shrieking, panicking, my dried mouth, my rapid heart beat, the sudden Nausea, including my liking of flee away from my problems. 

people said that I'm just being chicken. That I'm just an irresponsible coward who would run in every chance I've got. 

And It's not like I don't agree with them. besides, it is true that my scare list is far too long for a boy at my age. and my clumsiness just make it perfect...

However, ever since that spawn of devil, that introduced himself as my home tutor namely Reborn, turned my life 540 degrees (No... that's not a typo...), I was forced to face my phobia over and over again.

Despite his small body, he manage to drag me into a world where 'imposible' is not a word. into the future and save the universe? we've done it. Meet our anchestor over hundreds year? we nail it. Fight against evil 'ghost' who wants to take over the world? case closed...

Much more wonders he brought and it's been too many times I felt like having heart attack. I'm scared that I'll die from this madness-

Ah, another scare to my list.

Well, his name already on the first rank, so I guess this one could be sparred...

Haa....

And I thought that I will have a life of a normal man, who lives in a neat house, having a beautiful wife who would love me despite of my shortfall, and probably 2 children who would welcome me everytime I came home from my job. 

but, it looks like those will always stay as dream for me who always lack of sleep...

At least, I still have my family. 

Well, It's much Louder and much Crowder than I planned. But I would never trade them for the world. 

Because to me... They are my EVERYTHING...

My love to them made my phobia turned into worse, for I no longer scared of things to myself. It has been 14 years I became this selfless and change my scare list...

- I'm scared if they hurt

- if they sick

- if they leave me

---- if they died...

More lists... more things to be scared... worserning my phobia...

Yet, I don't mind it at all...

I don't mind to stay like this.

to be TRAPPED in this cursed life...

All because I know that my family... my beloved family, will always be there to support me when I fall...

to free me even when I trapped....

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The one shot is finished~!

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