The Hotel Room

Chapter 10

Lilly's pov

I went back Into my room before cleaning myself up and plugged my phone into the ihome speaker.

'Bulls In the Bronx'

Blared through the speaker as I stepped Into the hot shower.

"Do you know

I count your heartbeats before you sleep?

I bite my fingernails to bone

And then I crawl back under the stairwell

To a place I call my home"

I sang along as I danced around the shower.

"Shit."

I mumbled as I almost slipped on a bar of soap.

As that song came to an end so did my shower.

Quite quickly actually.

5 minutes maybe.

Instead of drying my hair I just left it wet and wavy considering we were at a beach.

I slid on my white shorts.

My black shirt with a vans logo on it and some dark purple vans.

I applied my makeup as usual and stepped outside the bathroom. I walked around my hotel room grabbing my purse and phone changer (I never leave without it incase of emergency).

I made triple sure to cover up any visible bruises from my brother and left.

I knocked on cams door and looked around nervously as people walked around the busy hotel hallway.

My mind kept screaming

'Dont look at me don't look at me don't look at me'

But I was trying to tell myself to stay calm.

I held my breath for a few seconds hoping that cam would open the door.

"Hey! Lilly, come in."

Matt spoke

I walked inside to see Cameron and some redhead making out.

'Oh...uh...'

I muttered

"Just ignore them."

Matt said rolling his eyes.

This lit a fire inside of me.

I don't know why because I cannot have feelings for Cameron. I just can't.

But, it seems that I did..?

I felt a lump in my throat watching them.

"Come on Lilly."

Matt said grabbing my hand.

"Let's get something to eat."

Cameron quickly shot a look at me before pushing the Redhead off of him.

"Oh Lilly...."

He said looking down as if guilty. We weren't even dating. Why is he being so weird?

"What? It's not like I meant something to or anything right?"

I snapped at him rudely.

His eyes got wide.

His jaw clenched.

"Right."

He replied.

I was furious. I was shaking with anger I grabbed a remote to my left and chucked it at him hitting him in the face.

"DAMN YOU CAMERON!"

I screamed before walking out with Matt.

"He's such a douche ugh!"

I said as soon as we hit the hallway.

"I know. He isn't meaning to be rude to you though. He's drunk."

"I don't care. I have problems. Disorders I cannot deal with rudeness any longer."

"D-disorders?"

Matt said staring at me worriedly.

"Um...yeah. A few."

He hit the stop button on the elevator.

"Tell me."

"No...I'm scared."

"Lilly please don't be afraid to tell me anything."

"I am."

"The sooner you tell me the sooner we get out of this elevator. I'm horrified of them."

"Me too..."

I said.

"Alright...."

I started.

"I have an eating disorder.

I have anxiety.

And I've been diagnosed with depression."

I confessed.

"Babe,"

Matt started.

"That isn't all. My brother abused me and my mother was a drunk after my dad left which was all blamed on me. I'm bullied in school to the point were I skip. I'm failing all classes because I fail to show up. I've been involved in drugs and stealing.

I only stole because I had nothing to live off of. Drugs seemed like he best thing to do at the time....getting high, not giving a shit about the world. Having no problems."

He got closer to me. And gave me a hug.

"Please. Please promise me you'll let me help."

"Matt I don't think you can"

"Let me try?"

"I guess."

He leaned back and kissed my cheek.

He then hit the start button again.

A/N

I'm sorry it took me like a whole month to update! I've been so busy lately with school and everything but I'll try to update more often!!

Xoxo savanah.