Live Again (Camren)

Chapter 10

Camila. 

        Life right now was great, my student weren't all that bad, my professors weren't all major assholes, my parents were strangely happy, my siblings were doing well at their new schools, Dinah and normani seemed to be in exceptionally good moods recently and well Lauren, she was being surprisingly amazing.

Since our impromptu visit with my family, things took a turn for the better. Lauren was making a huge effort to be an active participant in our relationship, and the sweet unexpected gestures didn't go unnoticed. This was a side of Lauren I'd never seen and I loved it. Our relationship needed working on and that's exactly what we did. We took things slow, got to know each other again, had a better grip on communication, we made time for each other and she made sure she told me she loved me everyday and I did the same. We were in a much better place this time around. Just The fact that Lauren didn't believe in psychology but  started seeing a therapist anyway was proof enough that she was making a genuine effort. She knew she needed a professionals help to deal with the loss of her child and her father. For so long she'd pushed it aside and worked herself into oblivion, she isolated herself because she couldn't come to terms with the loss. Weather she admitted it or not she blamed herself for their deaths, not being able to keep her father from that fatal accident and not being able to keep her daughter alive is what was eating at her. It's what caused her nightmares, what caused her distant behavior, she figured if she closed herself off to everyone then she wouldn't have to feel that raw pain again, the pain of losing someone she loved. It was obvious none of it was her fault but her mind had convinced her otherwise.

Her relationship with her family was improving, it started off with short phone calls, to her parents and her siblings. And soon after the phone calls turned into visits. We had dinner with her parents a couple times, along with short visit with her sister ally, she was still working on being more comfortable around children. And Daniel, well they were practically inseparable. They were constantly going out and doing things together, and Sofi was not happy about it. She wasn't big on sharing.

Today was Friday also know as my favorite day of the week because it meant the weekend was next and I could finally rest, but also because It was the day of the week with the shortest class schedule. It gave me the alone time I needed to write. Lauren's schedule was never short because after she finished teaching for the day, she spent a few hours in the lab. Now that her research in the French Polynesian islands was fished she'd have to conclude her study and turn in a report to her investors. Usually after that she'd publish papers and give lectures on the new information she'd discovered but not this year. Because She handed over that part of the job to Zara and Robert. I didn't understand why'd she let them take credit for her work until she sat down and explained it to me.

"It's not like that, of course I will be credited. It was my project, and I am the key biologist but it wasn't just me out there. Zara and Robert brought in important components to my research, plus they need the hands on learning experience of this side of the job. I am still helping them write the papers they will publish and my name will be on everything, the only difference now is that I won't be going with them to give the lectures. I don't want to spend a month traveling from universities to conventions to conferences and have to be away from you. I feel like our relationship has never been better and I don't want anything to change that." She said never breaking eye contact. And then she added, "Truthfully though I just don't think I could handle spending a night away from you." I of course couldn't handle the cuteness of it all and kissed her which led to us being naked and worn out on my couch.

Even though she wasn't going away with them and she was letting them handle most of the work she still had to be there to supervise and give the final okay on everything. Which meant sometimes she worked late and I won't lie I was a little iffy about Lauren and Zara spending long nights together but Lauren assured me they've been nothing but friends and If that wasn't enough she assured me that Robert along with 3 of her other grad students would be spending those long nights with them as well. I still have yet to meet Zara and I'm okay with that, I'm not exactly sure on what I would say to her. She just like Lauren suffered a great loss.