Goodbye

Goodbye 

"Is this goodbye then Hana?"

"I'm sorry, really I am, but I have to... I need to..."

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"Kim Hana Unnie ? Unnie? " I came back to reality when I heard Lany pinched my cheeks.

"What is it Lany?" I asked this six-year-old girl.

"Is it true Unnie? That EXO will be performing here tomorrow? "

I nodded.

"I can't wait Unnie." She smiled happily.

"Neither can I." I whispered very lightly I know she can't hear it. No one should hear it.

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"How could you do this to me? You promised me Hana ! You promised." He said which the last part was almost a whisper as his voice broke in his sobs.

I just look at him with those sad eyes. He never hurt me, not before and never will. I wanted to do the same but I always failed. Perhaps tonight will be the last.

"What about us? What's gonna happen to us?" he said as he hugged me tight.

"Sorry Minseok but I guess there will no longer be us." I replied as I let go of his hug. I don't wanna see him cry. I never wanna see him cry but I don't have a choice. I have to. I need to.

"Sorry" was the only word I can utter.

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Nightmares. I always have nightmares. But I know this isn't just a dream. It's a memory. Incidents in my past that I want to forget but sadly can't. A part of me that I want to let go.

I look around but I saw no one. It was just my cold bed being reflected by the light of the whole moonlight. I sigh as I tried hard to go back to sleep.

 "I wish he is already happy" were the last words I said before taking a whole night rest.

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 "Are the kids ready Hana?" Mother Theresa said to me.

"Yes. They are very anticipating for EXO's arrival." I smiled.

"Good." She retorted before leaving me to take care of the hall preparation. As I was arranging flowers, I saw 3 yellow tulips. Tulips. The flower that only one person knew, regarding myself, that I want.

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"Hana?" A sweet voice utter in our very silent house.

"I'm in my room!" I said. I heard couple of footsteps echoing throughout the floor. Then in just a while, I saw him, my beloved boyfriend standing by my doorstep. I smiled when I saw him bringing 3 flowers of tulips in a bouquet while smiling with his reddish cheeks.

"How was the practice?" I gestured.

"It was very tiring. We practiced whole day, can you believe that?" he said as his single eyelid eyes begin to grow bigger.

"Awww, Baozi, Its ok, it will all pay off once you debut." I said as I pinched his cheeks just like I always do when I find him cute.

"Anyway, I didn't forget. Happy 10000 days Hana." He retorted as he handed the bouquet to me and showed the smile that made me wanna melt. He always had that powerful smile that will always capture my heart.

"I love you." He hugged me and kissed my cheeks which made me flustered. He always knows when to make me feel the best. When to make me smile.