So it's been like 1 year since I came clean about not being Mark here and I have started to realize that because you guys know that I'm not really Markiplier anymore guys don't want to talk to me and that kind of bothers me a little bit.
You see when I create a viz account I made it to that way to help people with depression and anxiety issues and stuff like that but after a while I couldn't take it any longer and I decided to tell everyone that I wasn't mark. Now that it's been about 2 years since I made this account I started to see a pattern in Trust.
You see people will talk to famous people that they've never met before and be more open to them than others on the internet. And I'm not saying that's bad and I'm not saying that's a good thing, I'm just saying I've taken notice of this. I have had many conversations with many people here in Wattpad about personal issues that they have to go through and their daily life. And I would talk to them with multiple accounts , one being this one and another one being my personal account.
I would make it appear as if both conversations had no correlation with each other, that meaning that one had no idea what the other person had already said to that one person. This proved to me that many people will instead be open to a YouTuber in anybody else.
When I had around 150 followers here I was able to talk to you guys more freely and I am now but as time went on more and more people started following me and less and less people started talking to me , and I think it's because you guys have started to notice how many followers I have.
Even as Mark you guys would still talk to me even though at the time being Mark had over 14 million subscribers on YouTube, and yet you still messaged me, but now that I'm not Mark and I'm not a famous YouTuber and then I have under 1000 followers you won't even message me.
And that's the thing, you made time in your life to hopefully talk to somebody famous like Markiplier. But now that I'm not him you guys don't want to talk to me at all. I've had people that were in trouble not having their phone message me at school just to say hi. And I do that to you guys all the time because I love talking to you guys I love having that connection with other fans. But it hurts my heart to think that because I'm not so many that you all admire and look up to that you don't want to talk to me.
On September 18th of 2014 my whole entire world got changed. Three days before, Mark had dyed his hair pink and yet I had no idea who he was. I was considerably normal back then. After finding out what happened I wanted to help people so I made this account and now it seems like nobody wants my help. Because I'm not reliable like Markiplier, I'm not as trustworthy as him, I don't have the experience that he would.
That's bull, neither I nor mark has had any professional training on how to deal with people with depression and yet I'm still here and he still there trying and doing what we can to help you guys. And it's because we care. I wouldn't stay up past midnight talking to you guys because I didn't want to do it. And he wouldn't stay up past midnight editing videos because he didn't find it fun or rewarding. We're both doing what we do because we know that we're helping people. And I want you guys to realize that what I do and YouTubers together do takes a lot of our energy to do it. I would stay up past 2 in the morning talking to this one person all the time asking them how their day was what's new and it would be great because I would have a conversation with somebody.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm still the same person as I was when I was saying that I was Mark. I'm still here to help and talk to you guys if you need me to. Just because I'm not somebody you want to tell things to doesn't mean that I'm not going to want to listen,
