Poems that Invade my humble mind

12 am

"What's the big deal?"

I deflower when others flourish, I have to expect the worst in everyone, I needed you so badly you weren't there, is my first thought.

I break. I falter. I run away.

Why did I expect you to stay? I thought you knew that I have a hard time coping.

I thought that maybe there was still hope, maybe a 98% chance that everything would be okay.

I get so hopeful, I get so star struck, I get so anxious.

It's like I'm a beat up car, and you're the mechanic,

But the wires inside my body are so complicated that you decided that I'm not worth the fix.