Rambles

OH WOW

this is sooner than I expected
In a very sensory person. I dont like loud
My brother however
Is very
Very
Loud. I tell him. Aiden please be quieter
And replies with "Why don't  you just go upstairs" he doesnt just say it she snaps at me. Ive told him multiple times
Aiden I cannot handle  your constant screaming (he plays video games all day everyday and he yells at the game and talks extremely loud like. I mean. That sounds weird but he is just soso loud.) I tell him. I have mental issues. I have breakdowns if your too loud. In fact he has witnessed many of my meltdowns. Hes caused many of them. But does that change anything? No! He doesn't care about my mental health. Not only is he loud but he treats me like garbage. Hes almost as bad as my dad  maybe even worse. I tolerate his verbal abuse every single day but as soon as I say one nasty comment he starts sobbing and I get in trouble and Mom babys him and I just cant handle it. Im in my room all day everyday because he never shuts  up. And I get very.. Lonely..
Actually really lonely.  I had a breakdown at the dinner table  my Mom was the only one that did anything Aiden and Dad did. Guess what? NOTHING! They didn't bat an eye. Let alone ask if I was ok  they just sat there watching me sob while my Mom hugged me. We went and watched Miraculous ladybug even though she doesnt like it. After a meltdown Mom lays down with me and watches whatever I want. I love my Mom so much and she's really the only family I have. The only one that actually cares and helps me. I have friends that are basically my sisters and I love them so much. They are so kind to me and patient and tolerant of my many moodswings and I just love them.
I feel bad for rambling when I have people who love me. But my family. Who is supposed to love and care for me. Doesn't give a rats rear end. Except my Mom.
Ok.. Im at like almost 400 words I should stop

If you actually read all that.
Thanks
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