Itazura Na Kiss- Eternal Love Story

#27 Guidance and Reassurance (part one)

(General POV)

Naoki tried hard to stay strong. It wasn't the time to break down. It was the time to fight. To defeat the force that was threatening the love of his life. Yes, he would fight, he decided. He would fight and win the war. Nothing can take Kotoko away from him. Nothing, until he is by her side.

He started working from that night. He kept reading and analysing all her reports. All previous treatments and upcoming changes those are required. He started to study all the available information about each and every Neuroshia patients that were collected by their team. About those who survived and those who didn't. What went wrong in their treatments and possibilities of what would have happened if something different was tried. He analysed all the different theories and different outcomes.

He discussed about her treatment with their parents and decided to go to Hope in the next morning. Dr. Ayano would wait for him in the hospital. Kotoko was already half asleep in the bed when he joined her. He pulled her in his arms as soon as he lay down. That night after a really long time, Kotoko slept in his arms embracing him. A peaceful sleep. A nightmare less sleep.

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(Kotoko POV)

A warm feeling was spread throughout my body. My heart was less burdened. A smile crept in my lips as sunlight hit on my body through the bedroom window. I slowly woke up.

Wait! Is that an arm that is holding around my waist? Is that a neck that my lips are almost touching? Is that a body that I'm tightly holding onto as if my life is depended upon it?

Irie-kun!

I stiffened immediately. Why are we in this position? At least we both have our clothes on. I sighed. I thought harder and the events of the previous day hit me like the lightening. He found out... everything!

Well at least he doesn't hate me for hurting him so much. It was all wrong. I was so wrong. I shouldn't have hidden anything from him from the start. What was I thinking when I thought I would be fine without getting him involved. I should have known he would choose me not because I'm a burden but because I'm more important to him. And it was the right thing for him to do. After all I'm his life partner. His wife. Why didn't I see it before?

And now I have hurt him so much. I even led him to think that I didn't trust him. I didn't find him worthy enough to share my pain. No! How can you even think that Irie-kun? How can I not trust you, when you are everything that I have?

I tried to do what I thought was right. I tried so hard not to hurt Irie-kun but ended up hurting him even more. Screw you Kotoko! Why do you even try? Nothing you do end up being right and instead you always bring more trouble for him. See what you did now? How are you going to make him recover from this? How are you going to put him back together? He is already broken and there's more that he is yet to know.

Dr. Ayano didn't tell him about conceiving problems did he? Damn it, I don't even know how much he knows. But he read all my reports so he probably knew everything about my condition. But what about our parents? How much they know? How am I going to face them now? They must be feeling so hurt. Irie-kun wasn't home but they were. Dr. Ayano was correct. I was right in front of them and I was dying and they didn't even have a clue. Undoubtedly they are devastated. How will I make it up to them?

I clenched on Irie-kun's shirt. I didn't dare to move until now in case I woke him up. He worked till late night and was exhausted when he slept. But he stirred as I grabbed his shirt and I stilled.

"Good morning." He said, moving his hand onto my hair from my waist.

"Good morning. Did you sleep well?" I asked him looking up at him.