Up The Hills

not innocent (3.)

I know kids should be innocent

And girls should always smile

And boys should be strong

But somewhere, it went wrong

I'm still a child

Not innocent

Stained with my own sin

The tears that dry upon my cheeks

And the need to gulp a pill

That will

Ease the guilty pain

A hands that fumble in the dark

Only obey the brain

And the brain is me

And I'm the brain

A bundle of worm nerves

Maybe what could stop the crave

Is only a cold grave

Before I say no

During I scream

After I lay in a cold cloud of steam

I'm reaching the edge

I'm on the cliff

I want to jump down

I wonder what if

And then I fall back

I can't satisfy

That need deep inside

I'm too weak

I still can't decide