Let Go| Andre Silva Fanfiction

Chapter 9

Trying to bounce back to work at the Nike Office, I was ashamed that I'm always absent but I was able to catch up with work pretty quick, the whole duration of my stay at the hospital I was email-ing.

I was busy filing papers and running around the office the whole day, it's good to be back, I still don't know if I'm gonna push through with the pregnancy or not, I'm still taking my time.

"Stella?" Tessa walked up to me, "Now, that the short internship program is half way through, and I feel like I should already warn you that you might not make it, because of the number of absences," I felt so disappointed, "but, never lose hope, I really liked working with you, and so I hope HR will consider, I'm also willing to help you with recommendations,"

"Oh no thank you its fine! I guess I kinda saw it coming, thank you for the heads up. I'll do my best!" I said,

Damn! I really wanted this job! If it wasn't for me being knocked up! I saw the papers from the clinic, and today it looked extra tempting. Maybe this is a sign. I'll pass by tomorrow, maybe. Or put it up for adoption, Simone's idea.

I was replying to emails when I received a text from Emily, "In the city, want to have coffee, after work?", I replied, "Sure!"

After work I met up with Emily, in this café that I've never been because it looked too posh for me, I thought to myself, Ohhh, very Emily!

Emily waved at me, and as I was walking towards her, I saw that she brought little Rafa,

"Emily!" I gave her a hug, "Hi Rafa que lindo!" I caressed his little hands, he giggled,

"Oh honey, you're growing!" she touched the little bump, "hungry?" she asked

"Starving!!"

I ordered, almost everything in the menu, I could tell Emily's judging me,

"What? I'm eating for two!" I defended,

"..two what? months of hibernation? You only need about 300 extra calories" and she went on and on about facts on pregnancy and labor, did you know that labor could last for 24 hours? A whole day?

"So that was lovely!" I said, while we were leaving the cafe,

"So nice to catch up, the house has been full of boys" she said, "Do you want to go with me, and shop?"

"Why not! Walk off these calories" I said, we went to a boutique filled with clothes for babies, being that, I still don't know if I'm gonna keep it, I was deeply terrified to go in, "They're just clothes, they're not gonna bite" Emily kid,

"I know," I played it cool, I looked around and the shop was so bright and full of pictures of woodland creatures, cartoon characters, fairies and stuff,

"I don't like these" I murmured, I see Emily picking up stuff for Rafa, "Having fun Em?" I asked,

"Lovely shop don't you think? See if you like anything!"

I roamed around and I saw the boys toddler section, they had mini football jerseys and small football boots, "oh so cute! Darling, look!" one lady with her husband said, "get the one with Arsenal!" he said,

I picked up the tiniest football boots, I mimicked commentators by saying, "Silva with the ball, finds the spot and he goals! GOAL GOAL GOAL!"

And suddenly, for the first time, I felt the baby kick, "Oh my god!" I held my bump, "I felt it kick!" I yelled to Emily, across the boutique, and the boutique was full of new moms and pregnant woman, so you could imagine the crowd that circled around me,

It felt good, so good! 5 months in, and its the first time, I realized how much I love my kid, tears started gushing out! I'm cancelling everything. I'm keeping it!

I know that I don't book extra check-ups with the doctor, or read the book, I don't even bother to know the gender, but I'm gonna start now. I'm gonna be alone, I think, I'll be okay. I'm gonna have to cut cost, work my ass off, but I have my family, and friends. I don't think I have to tell Andre, I mean, why bother?

"Stella, why are you crying? Is it painful?" Emily asked me, "No, its not! It feels weird... Beautiful weird"

My drive home I was the best drive home, I was belting "Papa dont preach"

"But I've made up my mind, I'm keeping my babyyyyy"

When I got in to my driveway, I called Simone, she answered after 3 rings,

"Simmy, I'm keeping it!"

"OH THANK GOD!" she yelled!