Torn in between the two

Working it out

          I don't know, I mean I may sound like a hoe but I love Justin, but he has some fucked up ways! But Jeremiah I love everything about him.. great sex, he motivates me, protects me, spoils me.. he's really the best I ever had but he doesn't know how to keep his dick in his pants! Whats the point of being with Justin and he's starting to do the same, I mean in the beginning everything was nice, I moved in with him and he cooks and spoils me and is VERY loyal, but he's controlling, abusive and doesn't support me at ALL! The sex is good too, but I just haven't been turned on by him with the shit he has being doing and saying , the more he drinks the worse he gets and I can't deal. 

       I was on my way to meet up with my best friend Justice for lunch, she was pregnant with twins and her baby daddy is locked up, I feel so bad for  that she has to go through her pregnancy alone.. "heyyyy sexy" I said to her she laughed, sexy??? You see how fat I am these twins are turning me into a fucking whale and I have no baby daddy to run to the store with these crazy ass craving.. "speaking of baby daddies" I said you went to go see him?, her eyes started to water and I rubbed her back, "yeah, they are pushing for 25 years, by the time this nigga get out my kids will be grown as hell, he's gonna miss everything! all because he wanna do dick head shit!" relax baby I said, I will be the daddy.. don't worry whatever you need I got it! its not gonna be the same but I got you mamas, as I rubbed her belly." She smiled, "Bitch I love you so much " and she leaned her head against my shoulder  " He all like I don't want no other nigga taking care of my kids, like he has a fucking choice! I laughed girl, you think your shit is fucked up, I told her the whole ordeal from Justin to this morning with Jeremiah! WHAT she replied "Listen Iyanalee Jackson you deserve better than that stop letting these bum ass niggas treat you any kind of way! You do what you want and don't answer to anybody! you fucking hear me your a bad ass bitch, masters degree in business and you better start acting like it. I know Juss, but I don't know yo.. She stood up well I gotta go, my mother want me to go furniture shopping she said while rolling her eyes.

   I drove home, even though I didn't wanna be around Justin but I definitely would kill jeremiah if I get my hands on that nigga.. I walked in the apartment and the tv was loud as fuck and he was sleeping right on the couch, he had the henny bottle empty on the floor, I took the tv off and tapped him "Justin..wake upp.. Justin". He woke up with his eyes blood shot red " It's 4:30pm and you drunk as fuck.. he sucked his teeth and sat up "where were you?" I told you I went out with Justice an.. "You left 8:30 this morning, and you ain't texting or nothing .. I look like a dickhead to you?" No Justin " I said annoyed, "but you sitting in my fucking face act like you wasn't telling me you was fucking another bitch last night!" What do you expect you aint here! emotionally or physically he yelled in my face, I told you what you won't do another bitch will! My eyes started to tear up, you right I stood up and walked to the bedroom and started packing my shit. "Where you going?" he asked standing in the doorway. I replied " you don't have to worry about me anymore Justin, you can do what you want with someone else I had enough.. oh word you had enough he said yanking my bag out my hands and throwing it across the room.. "You so quick to leave, you fucking another nigga?" he asked. I was vexed by now and yelled in his face "Im not you ! I tried pushing pass him and he yanked me and threw me on the bed.. " you think you leaving me".. I tried getting up but he pushed me back down... and he started pulling off my sweats and once I was butt ass naked he buried his face in my wetness, by now I had a hand full of his curls "Fuckkkkkk, Justinnnn" , I wined on his face.. He started planting little kisses on my legs and he yanked his sweats down and his thick ass dick was rock hard, just looking at it had my pussy thumping, he massaged his dick in between my lips causing my pussy to drip, "Mhm, baby I want you inside of meeeee", I said biting my bottom lip.. you gotta work for it babe ... I knew exactly what he meant, I took his dick right in my mouth and deep throating it "Fuckkkkk, he groaned, "damn you look beautiful baby" as he pushed my hair back and started thrusting his dick deeper in my mouth.. then he pulled out and said turn yo ass around and he slid right in me, causing me to grip the sheets.. this nigga was so thick "dam..nnnnn baby , I feee.. SHUT THE FUCK UP and he slaps my ass, I said to speak? huh ? this my pussy you hear me? yes daddy...ahhh fuck Justinnnnnn, he pounded harder and I was cumin all on his dick already, I started throwing my ass back, "waittt... he groaned Iyanaaaa....chill he gripped my waist  "FUCKKKK, Im cumin he groaned and he collapsed right next to me .. "Damn I love yo ass!! " he smiled and falling right back to sleep and I did shortly after.