Listen to Me

The reality

The reality. It sucks.
When you are having the hardest time, it feels like no one is there.
And when you are having the greatest of times, it feels like everyone is there.

I get so close to someone and then I blow it. I push them away without thinking. I hate it and I don't try to but apparently I do. I finally get close to someone I care about but then I say I can't do this and stop.

I've lost friends because I pushed them away without realizing it. A friend of mine said that he would hate to see me push him away, he has stuck with me and I'm truly grateful I don't know what to say besides that.

I've had friends make me promise that I wouldn't go down a dark path again. But I told them I couldn't because I was upset when someone broke a promise they made to me but then I broke a big promise and I hate myself for it.

Isn't that a reality though? nothing's perfect? make good of every situation? what if you can't? but what if you do?

Thats the reality nothing's perfect nothing will be.