H U R T //p.j.m\\

C h a p t e r 7

Today was the first day in a while that I decided to spend the day treating myself. I wore a yellow striped shirt, some jean shorts, a pair of black converse, and a pink hat. I started the day off by going into my local coffee shop and buy a latte and a chocolate muffin. I walk into the shop and i felt nothing but good vibes. The barista was really kind to me and it smelled like coffee beans ( aka heaven ). I sat down to scroll through social media while finishing my coffee. It's always nice to see what your fellow classmates are up to. Jimin was gone to hang out with some of his friends so I planned the whole day out just so I can stay away from that kid. Next, i planned on going to a clothing store to buy a whole new wardrobe since I don't really like the clothes I own at the moment.
I spent at least 500$ on clothing and I don't regret it one bit. I bought clothes ranging from sexy nightclub attire to comfy sweatpants when I work out. Jimin is like a little kid, he's very clingy and can be hella annoying sometimes so I'm very glad that I was able to spend the day with me, myself, and I. I walk into one of my favorite stores, H&M, and I continue to shop for my own goods. As I arrive to the check out line, I notice a broad shouldered, masculine, blonde-haired guy checking out. My body shudders as I realize that it's my ex boyfriend, Kim Taehyung. We dated for two years before he cheated on me with my ex best friend, Jennie. He finished buying his attire and as he's walking towards the door, we exchange glances, I turn away immediately but that didn't work. I quickly buy my items and I leave. I walk out the door and he was there waiting for me.

"Long time no see, Juho." 

I looked away. How can I possible look at the boy who broke my heart?

"How are you? Are you okay now?"

I shook my head.

"Look, I know I hurt you. I never meant to. I would love to catch up again."

"Bullshit" I said.

He looked down, "Can I make it up to you? Maybe over coffee sometime?"

I thought about it. Maybe he is sorry, but I'm not going to let it get to me. I'm not the same girl I use to be, I know how to handle things way better now.

I fake a smile, "Okay."

Taehyung smiled, "Okay then."

He put his number in my phone and I did the same. "It was very nice to see you again."

I just smiled and nodded. He walked away and I decided to go home. 

I get home and I put all of my new clothes in my closet and all my accessories where they need to be. I took a nice, relaxing bath topped with bubbles, some delightful candles, and my favorite alcohol mix, coconut rum with cranberry juice. After my bath was over and my alcohol was kicking in, I put on some new lingerie just because I felt great and confident in it. I played music and  danced around my room in nothing but underwear (like an idiot) and hoping that nobody will knock anytime soon. 

Boy was I wrong.

My door opens and it was Jimin. I drop down behind my bed and I pull the covers on top of me. Jimin looks around the room in confusion, "Juho, why are you on the ground?" I look down in embarrassment, "Oh, well I'm just, um, I'm just napping." I fake a smile and he laughs.

He walks towards me with the biggest grin on his face. He swipes the blanket away from me and I roll under the bed. "It's okay. You don't need to be afraid." He holds his hand out for me. I roll my eyes and roll out from under the bed. Jimin backs away and chuckles, "Look how beautiful you are." I stand there with my arms crossed, embarrassed that I'm standing in front of Park Jimin with nothing but lingerie on. He walks towards me slowly, "I seriously can't believe how incredibly sexy you look." He grabs my hands and holds them.  His hands were warm, like a nice fire in the middle of a snow storm. I look in his eyes and I felt safe. For the past couple months I've tried to ignore the fact that Jimin has changed, and I'm done ignoring. I guess he saw the helpless look in my eyes because just like that, he crashes his lips into mine. I freeze.

It felt like a battlefield, our lips fighting for dominance. He puts his hands around my waist and I put mine on his shoulders, we stay in that position for God knows how long. Then, Jimin picks me up and gently places me on my bed. His lips trail to my neck and his hands start to roam around. I'm staring at the ceiling in awe because I'm scared at where this is going to go. I distract him by kissing him again. 

This moment was better than anything I've ever experienced, this moment was perfect. When I was with Taehyung, we would have sex many times. Jimin was different from Taehyung. Jimin was careful, like he would lose me if he messed up one bit. This was a sign that he genuinely cared about me and how I'm feeling. I would be lying if I said that I didn't have feelings for Jimin. 

He paused for a moment, "Did you drink coconut rum?" I smiled, "With cranberry juice too!" He chuckled and kissed me again. The make-out session lasted for over 30 minutes, you can already guess what happened afterwards. Even though we did have sex, it's definitley something that I don't regret.