50% more likely to abuse drugs. 74% more likely to commit violent crimes. 6 times more likely to commit suicide. 3 times as likely to repeat the cycle.
I am more then what heartless and hopeless statistics make me. I walked through the flames of ten different Hells and survived each battle. I have beaten the statistics. I will continue to beat them. I am not a number. I am a survivor.
There are ten levels of hell that I walked through across an 18 year journey. I have the scorch marks, and my clothes bare no record of it. I mended them as quickly as I could to show that those demons had no hold over me.
My hells are as that which follows:
Abandoment
Sexual Abuse
Murder
Suicide
Physical Abuse
Emotional Abuse
Slavery
Betrayal
Ostrisized
Self-hatred
All my hells are interconnected, and all have ended. Occasionally the demons revisit, but I simply remind myself of the now. I am not chained to those events anymore. I am my own woman. My own mind. My own soul.
You can box me, and force me to be understood on your terms. Do what you will to be comfortable and sleep at night.
I do. That's how I survived.
